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Book Thoughts without Cigarettes

Download or read book Thoughts without Cigarettes written by Oscar Hijuelos and published by Penguin. This book was released on 2011-06-02 with total page 384 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A beloved Pulitzer Prize-winning novelist turns his pen to the real people and places that have influenced his life and literature. A comprehensive look into the mind of a writer. Born in Manhattan’s Morningside Heights to Cuban immigrants in 1951, Oscar Hijuelos introduces readers to the colorful circumstances of his upbringing. The son of a Cuban hotel worker and exuberant poetry-writing mother, his story, played out against the backdrop of a working-class neighborhood, takes on an even richer dimension when his relationship with his family and culture changes forever. During a sojourn with his mother in pre-Castro Cuba, he catches a disease that sends him into a Dickensian home for terminally ill children. The yearlong stay estranges him from the very language and people he had so loved. With a cast of characters whose stories are both funny and tragic, Thoughts Without Cigarettes follows Hijuelos's subsequent quest for his true identity — a mystery whose resolution he eventually discovers hidden away in the trappings of his fiction, and which finds its most glorious expression in his best-known book,The Mambo Kings Play Songs of Love. Illuminating the most dazzling scenes from his novels, Thoughts Without Cigarettes reveals the true stories and indelible memories that shaped a literary genius.

Book Allen Carr s Easy Way to Stop Smoking

Download or read book Allen Carr s Easy Way to Stop Smoking written by Allen Carr and published by Penguin UK. This book was released on 2009 with total page 202 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The revolutionary international bestseller that will stop you smoking - for good. 'If you follow my instructions you will be a happy non-smoker for the rest of your life.' That's a strong claim from Allen Carr, but as the world's leading and most successful quit smoking expert, Allen was right to boast! Reading this book is all you need to give up smoking. You can even smoke while you read. There are no scare tactics, you will not gain weight and stopping will not feel like deprivation. If you want to kick the habit then go for it. Allen Carr has helped millions of people become happy non-smokers. His unique method removes your psychological dependence on cigarettes and literally sets you free. Accept no substitute. Five million people can't be wrong.

Book The Easy Way to Stop Smoking

Download or read book The Easy Way to Stop Smoking written by Allen Carr and published by Barnes & Noble Publishing. This book was released on 2004 with total page 232 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The author offers a step-by-step approach to stop smoking without the use of nicotine substitutes.

Book Lighting Up

Download or read book Lighting Up written by Susan Shapiro and published by Delacorte Press. This book was released on 2004-12-28 with total page 235 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In the critically acclaimed Five Men Who Broke My Heart, Manhattan journalist Susan Shapiro revisited five self-destructive romances. In her hilarious, illuminating new memoir, Lighting Up, she rejects five self-destructive substances. This difficult quest for clean living starts with Shapiro’s shocking revelation that, at forty, her lengthiest, most emotionally satisfying relationship has been with cigarettes. A two-pack-a-day smoker since the age of thirteen, Susan Shapiro quickly discovers that it’s impossible to be a writer, a nonsmoker, sane, and slender in the same year. The last time she tried to quit, she gained twenty-three pounds, couldn’t concentrate on work, and wanted to kill herself and her husband, Aaron, a TV comedy writer who hates her penchant for puffing away. Yet just as she’s about to choose her vice over her marriage vows, she stumbles upon a secret weapon. Dr. Winters, “the James Bond of psychotherapy,” is a brilliant but unorthodox addiction specialist, a former chain-smoker himself. Working his weird magic on her psyche, he unravels the roots of her twenty-seven-year compulsion, the same dangerous dependency that has haunted her doctor father, her grandfather, and a pair of eccentric aunts from opposite sides of the family, along with Freud and nearly one in four Americans. Dr. Winters teaches her how to embrace suffering, then proclaims that her months of panic, depression, insecurity, vulnerability, and wild mood swings win her the award for “the worst nicotine withdrawal in the history of the world.” Shapiro finally does kick the habit–while losing weight and finding career and connubial bliss–only to discover that the second she’s let go of her long-term crutch, she’s already replaced it with another fixation. After banishing cigarettes, alcohol, dope, gum, and bread from her day-to-day existence, she conquers all her demons and survives deprivation overload. But relying religiously on Dr. Winters, she soon realizes that the only obsession she has left to quit is him. . . . Never has the battle to stem substance abuse been captured with such wit, sophisticated insight, and candor. Lighting Up is so compulsively readable, it’s addictive.

Book Smoke Free in 30 Days

    Book Details:
  • Author : Daniel F. Seidman
  • Publisher : Simon and Schuster
  • Release : 2009-12-29
  • ISBN : 9781439123553
  • Pages : 240 pages

Download or read book Smoke Free in 30 Days written by Daniel F. Seidman and published by Simon and Schuster. This book was released on 2009-12-29 with total page 240 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: I'M TOO STRESSED TO STOP. I'LL GAIN WEIGHT IF I QUIT. I'VE TRIED AND FAILED TOO MANY TIMES TO COUNT. Why are you still smoking, even though you want to quit? Based on twenty years of research and hands-on work with countless smokers in his clinics at Columbia University and New York Presbyterian Hospital, Dr. Daniel F. Seidman understands that people smoke -- and quit -- for different reasons and what works for one smoker might not work for another. • Are you a Situational Smoker? Monitoring your reactions in different situations is a step toward permanently losing interest in cigarettes. • Are you a Worried-about-Weight Smoker? Properly using treatments like Nicotine Replacement Therapy (NRT) can help you quit and get healthy in all aspects of your life. • Are you an Emotion-Triggered Smoker? Scheduling your smoking breaks and sticking to a rigid "smoking schedule" helps break the link between stressful situations and craving cigarettes. In a comprehensive, 30-day program, Dr. Seidman explains how to retrain your brain, take advantage of all the tools at your disposal, and end the month smoke-free and feeling stronger than ever!

Book Nicotine

Download or read book Nicotine written by Gregor Hens and published by Other Press, LLC. This book was released on 2017-01-10 with total page 209 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: NAMED A BEST BOOK OF THE YEAR BY THE ECONOMIST By turns philosophical and darkly comic, an ex-smoker’s meditation on the nature and consequences of his nearly lifelong addiction. Written with the passion of an obsessive, Nicotine addresses a lifelong addiction, from the thrill of the first drag to the perennial last last cigarette. Reflecting on his experiences as a smoker from a young age, Gregor Hens investigates the irreversible effects of nicotine on thought and patterns of behavior. He extends the conversation with other smokers to meditations on Mark Twain and Italo Svevo, the nature of habit, and the validity of hypnosis. With comic insight and meticulous precision, Hens deconstructs every facet of dependency, offering a brilliant analysis of the psychopathology of addiction. This is a book about the physical, emotional, and psychological power of nicotine as not only an addictive drug, but also a gateway to memory, a long trail of streetlights in the rearview mirror of a smoker’s life. Cigarettes are sometimes a solace, sometimes a weakness, but always a witness and companion. This is a meditation, an ode, and a eulogy, one that will be passed hand-to-hand between close friends.

Book If Only I Could Quit

    Book Details:
  • Author : Karen Casey
  • Publisher : Simon and Schuster
  • Release : 2011-01-25
  • ISBN : 1592859666
  • Pages : 320 pages

Download or read book If Only I Could Quit written by Karen Casey and published by Simon and Schuster. This book was released on 2011-01-25 with total page 320 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: This complete resource brings together personal stories of recovery, Twelve Step guidance, and 90 daily meditations to help us become nicotine-free. This complete resource brings together personal stories of recovery, Twelve Step guidance, and 90 daily meditations to help us become nicotine-free. If Only I Could Quit is written by one of Hazelden's most popular meditation authors and a recovering nicotine addict.

Book Stop Smoking in One Hour

Download or read book Stop Smoking in One Hour written by Susan Hepburn and published by HarperCollins UK. This book was released on 2000 with total page 146 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: An accredited hypnotherapist offers a book-and-CD set to help smokers quit with no side effects, no cravings, and no gimmicks. She claims readers will feel no desire for a cigarette, no withdrawal symptoms, no irritability, and no desire for a snack between meals.

Book Quitting Smoking   Vaping For Dummies

Download or read book Quitting Smoking Vaping For Dummies written by Charles H. Elliott and published by John Wiley & Sons. This book was released on 2021-01-14 with total page 192 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Say goodbye to smoking and vaping forever! Now’s the time. You’ve decided to quit smoking or vaping for good. You know it’s the best thing for your physical and mental health, but you realize it won’t be easy. You’ve come to the right resource to help you succeed at your quest to quit. With down-to-earth advice, Quitting Smoking & Vaping For Dummies, Portable Edition, delivers proven techniques for success. The authors, two accomplished mental health professionals, walk you through the steps it takes to quit, day by day and month by month. They show you how to power past common obstacles to quitting, choose effective medication treatments, and overcome lapses. You’ll also learn how to: Create a plan to give up nicotine once and for all Get through that all-important first month Deal with weight gain and be kind to yourself on your quitting journey Tap into apps and online support groups when you have the urge to light up No matter how many times you’ve tried to quit, Quitting Smoking & Vaping For Dummies will help you achieve your goal of a new and healthier you! There’s no better time to start than today.

Book When You Are Engulfed in Flames

Download or read book When You Are Engulfed in Flames written by David Sedaris and published by Little, Brown. This book was released on 2008-06-03 with total page 274 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: "David Sedaris's ability to transform the mortification of everyday life into wildly entertaining art," (The Christian Science Monitor) is elevated to wilder and more entertaining heights than ever in this remarkable new book. Trying to make coffee when the water is shut off, David considers using the water in a vase of flowers and his chain of associations takes him from the French countryside to a hilariously uncomfortable memory of buying drugs in a mobile home in rural North Carolina. In essay after essay, Sedaris proceeds from bizarre conundrums of daily life-having a lozenge fall from your mouth into the lap of a fellow passenger on a plane or armoring the windows with LP covers to protect the house from neurotic songbirds-to the most deeply resonant human truths. Culminating in a brilliant account of his venture to Tokyo in order to quit smoking, David Sedaris's sixth essay collection is a new masterpiece of comic writing from "a writer worth treasuring" (Seattle Times). Praise for When You Are Engulfed in Flames: "Older, wiser, smarter and meaner, Sedaris...defies the odds once again by delivering an intelligent take on the banalities of an absurd life." --Kirkus Reviews This latest collection proves that not only does Sedaris still have it, but he's also getting better....Sedaris's best stuff will still--after all this time--move, surprise, and entertain." --Booklist Table of Contents: It's Catching Keeping Up The Understudy This Old House Buddy, Can You Spare a Tie? Road Trips What I Learned That's Amore The Monster Mash In the Waiting Room Solutions to Saturday's Puzzle Adult Figures Charging Toward a Concrete Toadstool Memento Mori All the Beauty You Will Ever Need Town and Country Aerial The Man in the Hut Of Mice and Men April in Paris Crybaby Old Faithful The Smoking Section

Book Quit Like a Woman

    Book Details:
  • Author : Holly Whitaker
  • Publisher : Dial Press
  • Release : 2019-12-31
  • ISBN : 1984825062
  • Pages : 384 pages

Download or read book Quit Like a Woman written by Holly Whitaker and published by Dial Press. This book was released on 2019-12-31 with total page 384 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER • “An unflinching examination of how our drinking culture hurts women and a gorgeous memoir of how one woman healed herself.”—Glennon Doyle, #1 New York Times bestselling author of Untamed “You don’t know how much you need this book, or maybe you do. Either way, it will save your life.”—Melissa Hartwig Urban, Whole30 co-founder and CEO The founder of the first female-focused recovery program offers a groundbreaking look at alcohol and a radical new path to sobriety. We live in a world obsessed with drinking. We drink at baby showers and work events, brunch and book club, graduations and funerals. Yet no one ever questions alcohol’s ubiquity—in fact, the only thing ever questioned is why someone doesn’t drink. It is a qualifier for belonging and if you don’t imbibe, you are considered an anomaly. As a society, we are obsessed with health and wellness, yet we uphold alcohol as some kind of magic elixir, though it is anything but. When Holly Whitaker decided to seek help after one too many benders, she embarked on a journey that led not only to her own sobriety, but revealed the insidious role alcohol plays in our society and in the lives of women in particular. What’s more, she could not ignore the ways that alcohol companies were targeting women, just as the tobacco industry had successfully done generations before. Fueled by her own emerging feminism, she also realized that the predominant systems of recovery are archaic, patriarchal, and ineffective for the unique needs of women and other historically oppressed people—who don’t need to lose their egos and surrender to a male concept of God, as the tenets of Alcoholics Anonymous state, but who need to cultivate a deeper understanding of their own identities and take control of their lives. When Holly found an alternate way out of her own addiction, she felt a calling to create a sober community with resources for anyone questioning their relationship with drinking, so that they might find their way as well. Her resultant feminine-centric recovery program focuses on getting at the root causes that lead people to overindulge and provides the tools necessary to break the cycle of addiction, showing us what is possible when we remove alcohol and destroy our belief system around it. Written in a relatable voice that is honest and witty, Quit Like a Woman is at once a groundbreaking look at drinking culture and a road map to cutting out alcohol in order to live our best lives without the crutch of intoxication. You will never look at drinking the same way again.

Book Cigarettes   Wine

    Book Details:
  • Author : J. E. Sumerau
  • Publisher : Springer
  • Release : 2017-03-23
  • ISBN : 9463009299
  • Pages : 20 pages

Download or read book Cigarettes Wine written by J. E. Sumerau and published by Springer. This book was released on 2017-03-23 with total page 20 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Imagine the terror and exhilaration of a first sexual experience in a church where you could be caught at any moment. In Cigarettes & Wine, this is where we meet an unnamed teenage narrator in a small southern town trying to make sense of their own bisexuality, gender variance, and emerging adulthood. When our narrator leaves the church, we watch their teen years unfold alongside one first love wrestling with his own sexuality and his desire for a relationship with God, and another first love seeking to find herself as she moves away from town. Through the narrator’s eyes, we also encounter a newly arrived neighbor who appears to be an all American boy, but has secrets and pain hidden behind his charming smile and athletic ability, and their oldest friend who is on the verge of romantic, artistic, and sexual transformations of her own. Along the way, these friends confront questions about gender and sexuality, violence and substance abuse, and the intricacies of love and selfhood in the shadow of churches, families, and a small southern town in the 1990’s. Alongside academic and media portrayals that generally only acknowledge binary sexual and gender options, Cigarettes & Wine offers an illustration of non-binary sexual and gender experience, and provides a first person view of the ways the people, places, and narratives we encounter shape who we become. While fictional, Cigarettes & Wine is loosely grounded in hundreds of formal and informal interviews with LGBTQ people in the south as well as years of research into intersections of sexualities, gender, religion, and health. Cigarettes & Wine can be read purely for pleasure or used as supplemental reading in a variety of courses in sexualities, gender, relationships, families, religion, the life course, narratives, the American south, identities, culture, intersectionality, and arts-based research. “I suspect that many people who have even unrecognized ambivalences about sexual and gender binaries might find in it an illuminating reflection of their own paths. This fast-paced, introspective romp through high school and beyond keeps the pages turning with love, sex, and an understanding grandma.” Dawne Moon, Ph.D., Marquette University, and author of God, Sex and Politics: Homosexuality and Everyday Theologies “Cigarettes and Wine is entertaining, thrilling, heartbreaking, while also a bit educational about the often invisible members of the LGBTQ community – bi and pan sexual, trans and gender non-conforming, and polyamorous folks. You won’t want to put it down!” Eric Anthony Grollman, Ph.D., University of Richmond and editor of Conditionally Accepted at Inside Higher Ed J. E. Sumerau is an assistant professor and director of applied sociology at the University of Tampa. Zir writing and research focuses on the intersections of sexualities, gender, religion, and health in the interpersonal and historical experiences of sexual, gender, and religious minorities.

Book If a Caveman Can Quit Smoking  Why Not Me

Download or read book If a Caveman Can Quit Smoking Why Not Me written by Douglas Hughes and published by AuthorHouse. This book was released on 2009-08 with total page 132 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Without a doubt this is one of the most comprehensive self-help books on the market today. It's not just another "how-to-quit" smoking manual. As tobacco prices continue to escalate, now is time to seriously consider breaking this cycle of addiction. In this book, Douglas uses a variety of familiar anecdotes to teach, admonish, and to persuade his readers that they can tailor a practical plan for quitting. His clear, descriptive language and candid story-telling will entice you to read the book in its entirety. Further, he introduces a proven strategy which you will find both useful and trustworthy. The information is both factual and credible, and his method for quitting is duplicable. Without bias, he describes a variety of cessation options for the smoker. However, his main focus is employing the "cold turkey" method for quitting the habit of smoking. This method not only saves you money, but it also minimizes the amount of psychological and physical discomfort associated with withdrawal and abstinence. The book builds on the premise: to successfully QUIT SMOKING you must STOP THINKING about it.

Book Twain   Stanley Enter Paradise

Download or read book Twain Stanley Enter Paradise written by Oscar Hijuelos and published by Grand Central Publishing. This book was released on 2015-11-03 with total page 496 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A New York Times "Editor's Choice"A Vanity Fair "Best Book for History Buffs"An Amazon Best Book of November 2015A David Baldacci Top Pick for Fall 2015A Boston Globe Fall 2015 PickAn EW.com Blockbuster Novel PickOne of Newsday's "20 Best Books to Read this Fall"One of Men's Journal's "7 Best Books of November" TWAIN & STANLEY ENTER PARADISE, by Pulitzer Prize-winning author Oscar Hijuelos, is a luminous work of fiction inspired by the real-life, 37-year friendship between two towering figures of the late nineteenth century, famed writer and humorist Mark Twain and legendary explorer Sir Henry Morton Stanley. Hijuelos was fascinated by the Twain-Stanley connection and eventually began researching and writing a novel that used the scant historical record of their relationship as a starting point for a more detailed fictional account. It was a labor of love for Hijuelos, who worked on the project for more than ten years, publishing other novels along the way but always returning to Twain and Stanley; indeed, he was still revising the manuscript the day before his sudden passing in 2013. The resulting novel is a richly woven tapestry of people and events that is unique among the author's works, both in theme and structure. Hijuelos ingeniously blends correspondence, memoir, and third-person omniscience to explore the intersection of these Victorian giants in a long vanished world. From their early days as journalists in the American West, to their admiration and support of each other's writing, their mutual hatred of slavery, their social life together in the dazzling literary circles of the period, and even a mysterious journey to Cuba to search for Stanley's adoptive father, TWAIN & STANLEY ENTER PARADISE superbly channels two vibrant but very different figures. It is also a study of Twain's complex bond with Mrs. Stanley, the bohemian portrait artist Dorothy Tennant, who introduces Twain and his wife to the world of séances and mediums after the tragic death of their daughter. A compelling and deeply felt historical fantasia that utilizes the full range of Hijuelos' gifts, TWAIN & STANLEY ENTER PARADISE stands as an unforgettable coda to a brilliant writing career.

Book Allen Carr s Easy Way to Quit Vaping

Download or read book Allen Carr s Easy Way to Quit Vaping written by Allen Carr and published by Arcturus Publishing. This book was released on 2021-05-01 with total page 300 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Allen Carr's Easyway is a global phenomenon - a clinically proven and 100% drug-free treatment for nicotine addiction. First used as an internationally renowned and incredibly successful stop-smoking method, this cutting-edge approach now addresses the fastest-growing nicotine delivery system in the world, vaping. The Easyway method tackles addiction from an entirely different angle. Rather than employing scare-tactics and enforcing painful restrictions on your vaping habits, it unravels the cognitive brainwashing behind your addictive behavior. In this way, it removes the desire to vape altogether without willpower or sacrifice. Whether you use e-cigarettes, JUUL, tanks or pens, or any kind of mod or pod, this method will work for you. All you have to do is read this book in its entirety, follow all of the instructions and you will be set free from your addiction to nicotine. • Does not rely on willpower, aids, substitutes, or gimmicks • Works without unpleasant withdrawal symptoms • Clinically proven to be AT LEAST as effective as UK health service's Gold Standard Stop Smoking Service. What people say about Allen Carr's Easyway method: "Allen Carr's international bestseller...has helped countless people quit." Time Out New York "I read this book and quit smoking instantly" Nikki Glaser "The Allen Carr program was nothing short of a miracle." Anjelica Huston "It was such a revelation that instantly I was freed from my addiction." Sir Anthony Hopkins "His skill is in removing the psychological dependence." The Sunday Times

Book You Can Stop Smoking

Download or read book You Can Stop Smoking written by Jacquelyn Rogers and published by Simon and Schuster. This book was released on 1995 with total page 340 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The easy, smoker-friendly way to quit from the founder of Smokenders. Completely revised and updated, this book provides all the information necessary to guide smokers through the quitting process with sections on weight gain, addiction, nicotine patches, and avoiding relapses.

Book Long Way Down

    Book Details:
  • Author : Jason Reynolds
  • Publisher : Simon and Schuster
  • Release : 2017-10-24
  • ISBN : 1481438271
  • Pages : 319 pages

Download or read book Long Way Down written by Jason Reynolds and published by Simon and Schuster. This book was released on 2017-10-24 with total page 319 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: “An intense snapshot of the chain reaction caused by pulling a trigger.” —Booklist (starred review) “Astonishing.” —Kirkus Reviews (starred review) “A tour de force.” —Publishers Weekly (starred review) A Newbery Honor Book A Coretta Scott King Honor Book A Printz Honor Book A Time Best YA Book of All Time (2021) A Los Angeles Times Book Prize Winner for Young Adult Literature Longlisted for the National Book Award for Young People’s Literature Winner of the Walter Dean Myers Award An Edgar Award Winner for Best Young Adult Fiction Parents’ Choice Gold Award Winner An Entertainment Weekly Best YA Book of 2017 A Vulture Best YA Book of 2017 A Buzzfeed Best YA Book of 2017 An ode to Put the Damn Guns Down, this is New York Times bestselling author Jason Reynolds’s electrifying novel that takes place in sixty potent seconds—the time it takes a kid to decide whether or not he’s going to murder the guy who killed his brother. A cannon. A strap. A piece. A biscuit. A burner. A heater. A chopper. A gat. A hammer A tool for RULE Or, you can call it a gun. That’s what fifteen-year-old Will has shoved in the back waistband of his jeans. See, his brother Shawn was just murdered. And Will knows the rules. No crying. No snitching. Revenge. That’s where Will’s now heading, with that gun shoved in the back waistband of his jeans, the gun that was his brother’s gun. He gets on the elevator, seventh floor, stoked. He knows who he’s after. Or does he? As the elevator stops on the sixth floor, on comes Buck. Buck, Will finds out, is who gave Shawn the gun before Will took the gun. Buck tells Will to check that the gun is even loaded. And that’s when Will sees that one bullet is missing. And the only one who could have fired Shawn’s gun was Shawn. Huh. Will didn’t know that Shawn had ever actually USED his gun. Bigger huh. BUCK IS DEAD. But Buck’s in the elevator? Just as Will’s trying to think this through, the door to the next floor opens. A teenage girl gets on, waves away the smoke from Dead Buck’s cigarette. Will doesn’t know her, but she knew him. Knew. When they were eight. And stray bullets had cut through the playground, and Will had tried to cover her, but she was hit anyway, and so what she wants to know, on that fifth floor elevator stop, is, what if Will, Will with the gun shoved in the back waistband of his jeans, MISSES. And so it goes, the whole long way down, as the elevator stops on each floor, and at each stop someone connected to his brother gets on to give Will a piece to a bigger story than the one he thinks he knows. A story that might never know an END…if Will gets off that elevator. Told in short, fierce staccato narrative verse, Long Way Down is a fast and furious, dazzlingly brilliant look at teenage gun violence, as could only be told by Jason Reynolds.