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Book The Elegant Lie

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  • Author : Sam Eastland
  • Publisher : Faber & Faber
  • Release : 2019-02-05
  • ISBN : 0571335705
  • Pages : 326 pages

Download or read book The Elegant Lie written by Sam Eastland and published by Faber & Faber. This book was released on 2019-02-05 with total page 326 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The year is 1949. In the bombed-out ruins of Cologne, Hanno Dasch is king. Director of the most successful black market operation in post-war Germany, Dasch has kept his clients supplied with goods so extravagant and rare that they were almost impossible to find even at the height of Germany's conquests.Nobody but Dasch, his enigmatic daughter and the war criminal he keeps as his bodyguard know how he does it.None of this has escaped the attention of Allied Intelligence, who face not only the systemic corruption of a country where everything is in short supply, but the growing threat of Stalin's KGB.Fearing that Dasch will soon expand his business to include dealings with Russia, and invite the further meddling of Russian agents in the west, the CIA sets in motion an undercover operation to infiltrate and, ultimately, destroy Dasch's empire. A disgraced American Army officer, Nathan Carter, is recruited to approach Dasch and to ingratiate himself with promises of stolen army supplies. As Carter moves further and further into the labyrinth of Dasch's world, it soon becomes clear that the black market ring has already been compromised, but by someone even more dangerous than the Russians.Carter stumbles upon a counterfeiting ring, with whom Dasch has unwittingly gone into business, which seems to have been created with the sole purpose of destroying the Soviet economy, something it could easily do with the superlative quality of the forged bills it is producing. With Carter caught in the middle, and facing the danger that his cover might be blown at any moment, a race begins between the Russian and American spy agencies to uncover who is responsible, before the situation escalates to war.

Book The Best Lies

Download or read book The Best Lies written by Sarah Lyu and published by Simon Pulse. This book was released on 2019-07-02 with total page 352 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: “A gripping story of love, obsession, and the space in between.” —Kirkus Reviews Gone Girl meets Suicide Notes from Beautiful Girls in this mesmerizing debut novel about a toxic friendship that turns deadly. Remy Tsai used to know how her story would turn out. But now, she doesn’t even know what tomorrow will look like. She was happy once. Remy had her boyfriend Jack, and Elise, her best friend—her soulmate—who understood her better than anyone else in the world. But now Jack is dead, shot through the chest… And it was Elise who pulled the trigger. Was it self-defense? Or something darker than anything Remy could imagine? As the police investigate, Remy does the same, sifting through her own memories, looking for a scrap of truth that could save the friendship that means everything to her. Told in alternating timelines, this twisted psychological thriller explores the dark side of obsessive friendship.

Book The Lie

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  • Author : Helen Dunmore
  • Publisher : Open Road + Grove/Atlantic
  • Release : 2014-04-01
  • ISBN : 0802192548
  • Pages : 181 pages

Download or read book The Lie written by Helen Dunmore and published by Open Road + Grove/Atlantic. This book was released on 2014-04-01 with total page 181 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A British World War I veteran returns to Cornwall in this “enthralling novel of love and devastating loss” from an Orange Prize winner (Good Housekeeping). Cornwall, 1920: Infantry officer Daniel Branwell has returned to his coastal hometown after the war. Unmoored and alone, Daniel spends his days in solitude, quietly working the land. However, all is not as it seems in the peaceful idylls of the countryside; and although he has left the trenches, Daniel cannot escape his dreadful past. As former friendships reignite, Daniel is drawn deeper and deeper into the tangled traumas of his youth and the memories of his best friend and his first love. Old wounds reopen, and old troubles resurface—though none so great as the lie that threatens to ruin Daniel’s life, the lie from which he cannot run. Told with breathtaking poise and exacting suspense, The Lie is a haunting journey through the mind of a tormented man as he tries to fit the pieces of his shattered past together. “Devastating and triumphant . . . wholly satisfying. Endings are often the hardest beast for an author to tame, but Dunmore does it, with elegance, vigor and clarity.” —The Denver Post

Book The Midnight Lie

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  • Author : Marie Rutkoski
  • Publisher : Farrar, Straus and Giroux (BYR)
  • Release : 2020-03-03
  • ISBN : 0374306397
  • Pages : 352 pages

Download or read book The Midnight Lie written by Marie Rutkoski and published by Farrar, Straus and Giroux (BYR). This book was released on 2020-03-03 with total page 352 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Set in the world of the New York Times–bestselling Winner’s Trilogy, Marie Rutkoski's The Midnight Lie is an epic LGBTQ romantic fantasy about learning to free ourselves from the lies others tell us—and the lies we tell ourselves. Where Nirrim lives, crime abounds, a harsh tribunal rules, and society’s pleasures are reserved for the High Kith. Life in the Ward is grim and punishing. People of her low status are forbidden from sampling sweets or wearing colors. You either follow the rules, or pay a tithe and suffer the consequences. Nirrim keeps her head down, and a dangerous secret close to her chest. But then she encounters Sid, a rakish traveler from far away, who whispers rumors that the High Kith possess magic. Sid tempts Nirrim to seek that magic for herself. But to do that, Nirrim must surrender her old life. She must place her trust in this sly stranger who asks, above all, not to be trusted.

Book Lie Still

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  • Author : Julia Heaberlin
  • Publisher : Bantam
  • Release : 2013-07-02
  • ISBN : 0345527046
  • Pages : 386 pages

Download or read book Lie Still written by Julia Heaberlin and published by Bantam. This book was released on 2013-07-02 with total page 386 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In the tradition of Lisa Unger’s Beautiful Lies and Nancy Pickard’s The Scent of Rain and Lightning comes a twisting, riveting novel of shifting trust and shattered lives. Lie Still delves deep into the heart of an opulent Southern town, where gossip is currency and secrets kill. When Emily Page and her husband move from Manhattan to the wealthy enclave of Clairmont, Texas, she hopes she can finally escape her haunted past—and outrun the nameless stalker who has been taunting her for years. Pregnant with her first child, Emily just wants to start over. But as she is drawn into a nest of secretive Texas women—and into the unnerving company of their queen, Caroline Warwick—Emily finds that acceptance is a very dangerous game. It isn’t long before Caroline mysteriously disappears and Emily is facing a rash of anonymous threats. Are they linked to the missing Caroline? Or to Emily’s terrifying encounter in college, years earlier? As the dark truth about Caroline emerges, Emily realizes that some secrets are impossible to hide—and that whoever came for Caroline is now coming for her. Praise for Lie Still “In this engrossing novel of suspense . . . [Heaberlin] expertly spins out a tale of lies and deceit that will keep the reader guessing.”—Publishers Weekly “Heaberlin’s depiction of one tight-knit Texas community is both culturally savvy and politically astute. . . . A carefully wrapped package of Texas soap opera, social and political exposé, and well-paced thriller.”—Booklist “Heaberlin combines a culturally pertinent suspense story (the plot revolves around the main character’s struggles with the repercussions of an unreported date rape) with satirical observations about Texas’ moneyed suburban elite.”—The New York Times “Lie Still mixes serious discussion about ‘the last frontier in crime’ with a twisty-turny mystery plot and a cast of eccentric characters.”—Fort Worth Star-Telegram “Reading a book by Julia Heaberlin is like hearing your best friend tell you a particularly thorny story, filled with secrets and intrigue and human hopes and failures. Lie Still is a book you want to curl up with for a good long while but, more important, Julia Heaberlin is an author you want to get to know.”—Jenny Milchman “Julia Heaberlin weaves an intricate tapestry of secrets and suspense, lies and betrayals that kept me reading late into the night. Lie Still is a thriller par excellence and a page-turner, true—but it’s also a moving story of one woman’s unlikely path toward healing, and another’s lifelong search for redemption. I challenge you to visit Claremont, Texas—where nothing is quite as it seems and no one is quite who they claim—and leave unchanged.”—Emily Colin “Julia Heaberlin deceives the reader in the most deliciously chilling way in Lie Still: With gorgeous prose and sterling character work, she takes us on a deeply felt and wonderfully composed thrill ride. Layer after layer of secrets, longing, and deception is peeled away and we begin to dread the twisted kernel at the heart, never guessing what Heaberlin has in store for us.”—Sophie Littlefield, bestselling author of Garden of Stones

Book Her Dark Lies

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  • Author : J.T. Ellison
  • Publisher : MIRA
  • Release : 2021-03-09
  • ISBN : 1488076545
  • Pages : 439 pages

Download or read book Her Dark Lies written by J.T. Ellison and published by MIRA. This book was released on 2021-03-09 with total page 439 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: “Elegant, propulsive, and utterly unputdownable… The work of one of our most talented thriller writers at the very top of her game.” —Lisa Unger, New York Times bestselling author of Confessions on the 7:45 Fast-paced and brilliantly unpredictable, J.T. Ellison’s breathtaking novel invites you to a wedding none will forget—and some won’t survive. Jutting from sparkling turquoise waters off the Italian coast, Isle Isola is an idyllic setting for a wedding. In the majestic cliff-top villa owned by the wealthy Compton family, up-and-coming artist Claire Hunter will marry handsome, charming Jack Compton, surrounded by close family, intimate friends…and a host of dark secrets. From the moment Claire sets foot on the island, something seems amiss. Skeletal remains have just been found. There are other, newer disturbances, too. Menacing texts. A ruined wedding dress. And one troubling shadow hanging over Claire’s otherwise blissful relationship—the strange mystery surrounding Jack’s first wife. Then a raging storm descends, the power goes out—and the real terror begins… Don't miss J.T. Ellison's next thriller, IT'S ONE OF US, coming February 2023!

Book The Lies He Told

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  • Author : Valerie Keogh
  • Publisher : Open Road Media
  • Release : 2021-07-26
  • ISBN : 1504070852
  • Pages : 286 pages

Download or read book The Lies He Told written by Valerie Keogh and published by Open Road Media. This book was released on 2021-07-26 with total page 286 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: One cheating man. Four angry women. One crime of passion. “A gripping and very entertaining” thriller from the bestselling author of The Perfect Life (Once Upon a Time Book Review). Successful Misty is happy living with her perfect boyfriend until he tells her he is leaving. Elegant Gwen is excited about the new man in her life until she discovers he’s been lying to her. Angry Babs has the love of her life lured away, first by Misty then by Gwen, and she wants revenge. Long-suffering Dee is a wife who takes her wandering husband back every single time. When the lives of these four women collide, the results are deadly. One thing is for certain, the consequences of lying will be murder . . .

Book Lie With Me

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  • Author : Philippe Besson
  • Publisher : Scribner
  • Release : 2019-04-30
  • ISBN : 1501197878
  • Pages : 160 pages

Download or read book Lie With Me written by Philippe Besson and published by Scribner. This book was released on 2019-04-30 with total page 160 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The award-winning, bestselling French novel by Philippe Besson—“the French Brokeback Mountain” (Elle)—about an affair between two teenage boys in 1984 France, translated with subtle beauty and haunting lyricism by the iconic and internationally acclaimed actress/writer Molly Ringwald. We drive at high speed along back roads, through woods, vineyards, and oat fields. The bike smells like gasoline and makes a lot of noise, and sometimes I’m frightened when the wheels slip on the gravel on the dirt road, but the only thing that matters is that I’m holding on to him, that I’m holding on to him outside. Just outside a hotel in Bordeaux, Philippe chances upon a young man who bears a striking resemblance to his first love. What follows is a look back at the relationship he’s never forgotten, a hidden affair with a gorgeous boy named Thomas during their last year of high school. Without ever acknowledging they know each other in the halls, they steal time to meet in secret, carrying on a passionate, world-altering affair. Dazzlingly rendered in English by Ringwald in her first-ever translation, Besson’s powerfully moving coming-of-age story captures the eroticism and tenderness of first love—and the heartbreaking passage of time.

Book Seven Ways We Lie

Download or read book Seven Ways We Lie written by Riley Redgate and published by Abrams. This book was released on 2016-03-08 with total page 354 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In Seven Ways We Lie, a chance encounter tangles the lives of seven high school students, each resisting the allure of one of the seven deadly sins, and each telling their story from their seven distinct points of view. The juniors at Paloma High School all have their secrets, whether it’s the thespian who hides her trust issues onstage, the closeted pansexual who only cares about his drug-dealing profits, or the neurotic genius who’s planted the seed of a school scandal. But it’s Juniper Kipling who has the furthest to fall. No one would argue that Juniper—obedient daughter, salutatorian, natural beauty, and loyal friend—is anything but perfect. Everyone knows she’s a saint, not a sinner; but when love is involved, who is Juniper to resist temptation? When she begins to crave more and more of the one person she can’t have, her charmed life starts to unravel. Then rumors of a student–teacher affair hit the fan. After Juniper accidentally exposes her secret at a party, her fate falls into the hands of the other six sinners, bringing them into one another’s orbits. All seven are guilty of something. Together, they could save one another from their temptations—or be ruined by them. Riley Redgate’s twisty YA debut effortlessly weaves humor, heartbreak, and redemption into a drama that fans of Jenny Han and Stephanie Perkins will adore.

Book Lying Awake

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  • Author : Mark Salzman
  • Publisher : Vintage
  • Release : 2003-12-16
  • ISBN : 1400077753
  • Pages : 193 pages

Download or read book Lying Awake written by Mark Salzman and published by Vintage. This book was released on 2003-12-16 with total page 193 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Mark Salzman's Lying Awake is a finely wrought gem that plumbs the depths of one woman's soul, and in so doing raises salient questions about the power-and price-of faith. Sister John's cloistered life of peace and prayer has been electrified by ever more frequent visions of God's radiance, leading her toward a deep religious ecstasy. Her life and writings have become examples of devotion. Yet her visions are accompanied by shattering headaches that compel Sister John to seek medical help. When her doctor tells her an illness may be responsible for her gift, Sister John faces a wrenching choice: to risk her intimate glimpses of the divine in favor of a cure, or to continue her visions with the knowledge that they might be false-and might even cost her her life.

Book Good Girls Lie

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  • Author : J.T. Ellison
  • Publisher : MIRA
  • Release : 2019-12-30
  • ISBN : 1488023565
  • Pages : 474 pages

Download or read book Good Girls Lie written by J.T. Ellison and published by MIRA. This book was released on 2019-12-30 with total page 474 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: J.T. Ellison’s pulse-pounding new psychological thriller examines the tenuous bonds of friendship, the power of lies and the desperate lengths people will go to in order to protect their secrets. Goode girls don’t lie… Perched atop a hill in the tiny town of Marchburg, Virginia, The Goode School is a prestigious prep school known as a Silent Ivy. The boarding school of choice for daughters of the rich and influential, it accepts only the best and the brightest. Its elite status, long-held traditions and honor code are ideal for preparing exceptional young women for brilliant futures at Ivy League universities and beyond. But a stranger has come to Goode, and this ivy has turned poisonous. In a world where appearances are everything, as long as students pretend to follow the rules, no one questions the cruelties of the secret societies or the dubious behavior of the privileged young women who expect to get away with murder. When a popular student is found dead, the truth cannot be ignored. Rumors suggest she was struggling with a secret that drove her to suicide. But look closely…because there are truths and there are lies, and then there is everything that really happened. Don’t miss It's One of Us, the next page-turning thriller from New York Times bestselling author J.T. Ellison!

Book Dreamers Often Lie

Download or read book Dreamers Often Lie written by Jacqueline West and published by Penguin. This book was released on 2016-04-05 with total page 337 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: New York Times bestselling author Jacqueline West makes her YA debut in this Shakespeare-inspired novel for fans of Holly Black and Laini Taylor "If you liked the trippy hallucinations of Black Swan, you'll be mesmerized by Jacqueline West's eerie new YA romance."—Entertainment Weekly Who can you trust when you can't trust yourself? Jaye wakes up from a skiiing accident with a fractured skull, a blinding headache, and her grip on reality sliding into delusion. Determined to get back to her starring role in the school production of A Midsummer Night's Dream, Jaye lies to her sister, her mom, her doctors. She's fine, she says. She's fine. If anyone knew the truth—that hallucinations of Shakespeare and his characters have followed her from her hospital bed to the high school halls—it would all be over. She's almost managing to pull off the act when Romeo shows up in her anatomy class. And it turns out that he's 100 percent real. Suddenly Jaye has to choose between lying to everyone else and lying to herself. Troubled by this magnetic boy, a long-lost friend turned recent love interest, and the darkest parts of her family's past, Jaye's life tangles with Shakespeare's most famous plays until she can't tell where the truth ends and pretending begins. Soon, secret meetings and dizzying first kisses give way to more dangerous things. How much is real, how much is in Jaye's head, and how much does it matter as she flies toward a fate over which she seems to have no control?

Book The Kindest Lie

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  • Author : Nancy Johnson
  • Publisher : HarperCollins
  • Release : 2021-02-02
  • ISBN : 0063005654
  • Pages : 371 pages

Download or read book The Kindest Lie written by Nancy Johnson and published by HarperCollins. This book was released on 2021-02-02 with total page 371 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Recommended by O Magazine * GMA * Elle * Marie Claire * Good Housekeeping * NBC News * Shondaland * Chicago Tribune * Woman's Day * Refinery 29 * Bustle * The Millions * New York Post * Parade * Hello! Magazine * PopSugar * and more! “The Kindest Lie is a deep dive into how we define family, what it means to be a mother, and what it means to grow up Black...beautifully crafted.” —JODI PICOULT "A fantastic story...well-written, timely, and oh-so-memorable."—Good Morning America “The Kindest Lie is a layered, complex exploration of race and class." —The Washington Post Every family has its secrets... It’s 2008, and the inauguration of President Barack Obama ushers in a new kind of hope. In Chicago, Ruth Tuttle, an Ivy-League educated Black engineer, is married to a kind and successful man. He’s eager to start a family, but Ruth is uncertain. She has never gotten over the baby she gave birth to—and was forced to leave behind—when she was a teenager. She had promised her family she’d never look back, but Ruth knows that to move forward, she must make peace with the past. Returning home, Ruth discovers the Indiana factory town of her youth is plagued by unemployment, racism, and despair. As she begins digging into the past, she unexpectedly befriends Midnight, a young white boy who is also adrift and looking for connection. Just as Ruth is about to uncover a burning secret her family desperately wants to keep hidden, a heart-stopping incident strains the town’s already searing racial tensions, sending Ruth and Midnight on a collision course that could upend both their lives. Powerful and unforgettable, The Kindest Lie is the story of an American family and reveals the secrets we keep and the promises we make to protect one another.

Book Lie Down in Roses

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  • Author : Heather Graham
  • Publisher : Zebra Books
  • Release : 2017-08-29
  • ISBN : 1420147005
  • Pages : 512 pages

Download or read book Lie Down in Roses written by Heather Graham and published by Zebra Books. This book was released on 2017-08-29 with total page 512 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: “Strong characters, passion and a believable Middle Ages political plot” from the New York Times-bestselling author of Blue Heaven, Black Knight (Books for Her). The willful and beautiful Lady Genevieve would do anything to save her beloved Edenby Castle . . . even if she had to share the name—and bed—of her most treacherous foe . . . He was Lord Tristan, nobleman and knight. Magnificent in battle, he would lead his invading army across the land, only to become captive to the sensual charms of the bold enchantress who was secretly plotting his destruction . . . They were born to be enemies and destined to be lovers—players in a perilous game of intrigue and passion where the price was one woman’s innocence . . .and the prize was one man’s heart. Praise for Heather Graham “An incredible storyteller.” —Los Angeles Daily News “Engrossing, sexy historical romance.” —Publishers Weekly “Graham is a master at crafting stories that never feel old.” —RT Book Reviews “Will keep you glued to the pages . . .[with] the danger, drama, and energy.” —Fresh Fiction “Never fails to amaze and entertain.” —Rave Reviews

Book All the Best Lies

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  • Author : Joanna Schaffhausen
  • Publisher : Minotaur Books
  • Release : 2020-02-11
  • ISBN : 1250297397
  • Pages : 320 pages

Download or read book All the Best Lies written by Joanna Schaffhausen and published by Minotaur Books. This book was released on 2020-02-11 with total page 320 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The highly anticipated third novel in the award-winning Ellery Hathaway mystery series. FBI agent Reed Markham is haunted by one painful unsolved mystery: who murdered his mother? Camilla was brutally stabbed to death more than forty years ago while baby Reed lay in his crib mere steps away. The trail went so cold that the Las Vegas Police Department has given up hope of solving the case. But then a shattering family secret changes everything Reed knows about his origins, his murdered mother, and his powerful adoptive father, state senator Angus Markham. Now Reed has to wonder if his mother's killer is uncomfortably close to home. Unable to trust his family with the details of his personal investigation, Reed enlists his friend, suspended cop Ellery Hathaway, to join his quest in Vegas. Ellery has experience with both troubled families and diabolical murderers, having narrowly escaped from each of them. She's eager to skip town, too, because her own father, who abandoned her years ago, is suddenly desperate to get back in contact. He also has a secret that could change her life forever, if Ellery will let him close enough to hear it. Far from home and relying only on each other, Reed and Ellery discover young Camilla had snared the attention of dangerous men, any of whom might have wanted to shut her up for good. They start tracing his twisted family history, knowing the path leads back to a vicious killer—one who has been hiding in plain sight for forty years and isn't about to give up now.

Book A Right to Lie

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  • Author : Catherine J. Ross
  • Publisher : University of Pennsylvania Press
  • Release : 2021-11-30
  • ISBN : 0812299736
  • Pages : 185 pages

Download or read book A Right to Lie written by Catherine J. Ross and published by University of Pennsylvania Press. This book was released on 2021-11-30 with total page 185 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In A Right to Lie?, legal scholar Catherine J. Ross addresses the urgent issue of whether the nation's highest officers, including the president, have a right to lie under the Speech Clause, no matter what damage their falsehoods cause. Does freedom of expression protect even factual falsehoods? If so, are lies by candidates and public officials protected? And is there a constitutional path, without violating the First Amendment, to stop a president whose persistent lies endanger our lives and our democracy? Perhaps counter-intuitively, the general answer to each question is "yes." Drawing from dramatic court cases about defamers, proponents of birtherism, braggarts, and office holders, Ross reveals the almost insurmountable constitutional and practical obstacles to legal efforts to rein in public deception. She explains the rules that govern the treatment of lies, while also demonstrating the incalculable damage presidential mendacity may lead to, as revealed in President Trump's lies about the COVID-19 pandemic and the legitimacy of the 2020 election. Falsehoods have been at issue in every presidential impeachment proceeding from Nixon to Trump. But, until now, no one has analyzed why public lies might be impeachable offenses, and whether the First Amendment would provide a defense. Noting that speech by public employees does not receive the same First Amendment protection as the speech of ordinary citizens, Ross proposes the constitutionally viable solution of treating presidents as public employees who work for the people. Charged with oversight of the Executive, Congress may—and should—put future presidents on notice that material lies to the public on substantial matters will be deemed a "high crime and misdemeanor" subject to censure and even impeachment. A Right to Lie? explains how this approach could work if the political will were in place.

Book Come Lie With Me

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  • Author : Linda Howard
  • Publisher : Harlequin
  • Release : 2012-10-15
  • ISBN : 1460304705
  • Pages : 242 pages

Download or read book Come Lie With Me written by Linda Howard and published by Harlequin. This book was released on 2012-10-15 with total page 242 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Come lie with me and be my love. How Dione Kelley longed to hear those words. But Blake Remington could never speak them to her. An accident had left him unable to walk, and her therapy had made him whole again. She had given him back the strength he needed to be a man—and in so doing robbed him of the chance to see her as a woman. How could she believe his words of love, when she knew they were spoken only out of gratitude?