Download or read book Chelsea Matinee Memoirs of an Easy Woman written by B.K. Smith and published by Madison Avenue Publishers. This book was released on 2014-07-03 with total page 247 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: For our first special date, I chose a dress that would be special. The texture was crisp but not solid as taffeta or poplin; it was capable of floating. It was fine cotton; unusual for an evening dress, but the color was graphite, with a slight flair, like lakes in soft pencil on cartridge paper. The top was fitted to my narrow frame, not too low, but with unfussy chemise shoulders. The waist was slightly dropped so that my long torso was straight like a pencil—from there, the skirt, cut on a bias, flowed and floated over stiff netting. On the shoulder I had pinned my mother’s gold brooch, a rose. On one of its petals shone a diamond dewdrop. It was seven o'clock. Then eight o’clock. Then nine. I waited. I hardly knew him and already he was late; probably already bored with me—they all get bored eventually. I knew why. It was vanity. I didn’t feel attractive or alluring or desired. I quickly dismissed any notion of giving him a piece of my mind. I pulled up my skirt and undid my garters and carefully rolled down my sheer black silk stockings. I folded the stockings up together and put them on the table next to a vase of gladioli. After that, I painted my toenails Polynesian Pink to match my fingernails. I wiggled my toes while I waited for my toenails to dry, and then I unfolded the stockings and rolled them back up my legs. When I had done up my garters I put on my shoes—all done—and I waited some more. I was just another woman at his disposal, which made me disposable. The fact that I aspired to be a great painter meant nothing to him. What happens when you fall in love with a man with no conscience? When you have been seduced and abandoned and left for dead? How do you reconcile your life, your truth, your fiction, and your memories? You spend the better part of your life trying to forget, and then you remember it one last time. You write the story from a safe distance of more than thirty years. You write it from memory where the true essence of the affair resides, and you release it into the cosmos finally, forever... May he rest in pieces.
Download or read book Manifest Destiny Memoirs of a Dreaming Woman written by B. K. Smith and published by Madison Avenue Publishers LLC. This book was released on 2018-06-22 with total page 151 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Manifest Destiny - Memoirs of a Dreaming Woman combines Spirituality, Paranormal and Magic into one romantic odyssey. D.M. English PhD writes preventive programs for peer-review magazines and clinics. She is at the end of her career and looking for something else... She begins to hear things and to see things, as all of her hand-woven native American rugs begin to unravel. It's happy hour in her small writing cottage in the desert as the spirits begin to dance in the light and shadows on the ceiling, the branches crackle in the fire place, and the apparition of a warrior stands outside watching her, and soon disappears back into the desert. As Dr. English (Maggie) explores the desert, she meets people, or spirits... as she never knows if she's dreaming or awake. Eventually it doesn't matter, they are the same. These spirits explain her "Dreaming Power" to her, a long way from her home on the beaches of the Long Island Sound, where she learned to read the clouds, those great galleons that bring Mr. Rain, or not. As she begins to understand what is happening to her, what happens when we dream, travels through the Astral layer. The universe may have had a beginning, but it was so long ago, the big bangs and tiny quicken-ings, but there is no middle or end. It always was and always will be? As a scientist, an epidemiologist, she knows that how or where it began affects directly how it will end. But confronted with spirits, angels, that travel to and from some fascinating place where there are no limits, no boundaries, she begins to understand that Science and Faith are two sides of the same coin. The Yin-and-Yang, light and dark, full moon and no moon at all. Maggie learns to release to her destiny by manifesting it. She meets a Medicine Man with Coyote Power. He explains to her that where they are going there are no books since books have beginnings, middles, and endings. There aren't even words, since mental telepathy is used. He takes her to higher desert where they will prepare to ascend. She has found her "Twin Flame," that she knew nothing about, and together they will kayak to this amazing place until the water is so shallow that they can walk on it the rest of the way. The Ascension chakra is stimulated and she passes through it. For readers who doubt, B. K. Smith provides the mathematical equation that cements the deal.
Download or read book Rattle Snake Lodge Memoirs of a Seeing Woman written by BK Smith and published by Madison Avenue Publishers LLC. This book was released on 2015-07-31 with total page 298 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: MY NAME IS AMANDA FRENCH. My family name French, I believe says it all. We, the French women, were born to wear elegant clothing and accessories, the finer brocades and silks, fluid and cool, raw dupioni and nubby shantung, the texture that is pure sex to the hand that appreciates. All the women in my family have some sense of the future and will tell you what it holds; and even before I was sure what it was, I knew I had it, the power to see. My grandmother, a healer, could interpret the sky; predict weather patterns, upcoming anomalies, drought, that sort of thing. My sister read hands; tiny crooked lines leading up and down, front to back, thumb to wrist, are the roads she helps to navigate. My aunt could read dreams and tell an expectant mother the sex of her unborn baby. My great grandmother could heal "troublesome ailments" and call out evil spirits from the sick, the overlooked, and cursed alike. And her mother, my great great grandmother before her, was known to associate with ghosts, the spirits that have passed over but not before promising to return and tell all, which they did by channeling through her in different languages. Her sister, my great aunt, could tell you the day and time of your birth and the day and time of your death. Sometimes I know the future in my breast. Sometimes I see the future coming out like a picture show, images that seep into your head the way rainwater collects in a basement corner, gathering from no place in particular. More often though, I see events in tea leaves, little bits of myself floating to the top of a shapely Spode china cup, tentatively dancing along the fragile gold leaf rim like your last memories in the few minutes before death. Often as I would stare down into my tomorrow, wondering if I should drink the brew or run to the sink and pour it down the drain, I would often do the latter. It's not that a particular vision was so frightening or alien—I grew up after all with these gifted women around me conversing with entities neither you nor I could see—it's just the memory of seeing trouble early in a courtship and remembering what it felt like, one lone tear snaking down my face, and my words all square and neat as I told him, "I love you but... I see no future." Or, I did see a future and there was no happiness in it. But, with this man, with Reed, I never saw a blessed thing. I never saw anything at all in the beginning. If I had, it would have been as shocking I'm sure as seeing blood on the moon. I guess it's true what they say, that you never see the bus that hits you.
Download or read book Just Desserts written by BK Smith and published by Madison Avenue Publishers LLC. This book was released on 2015-10-10 with total page 74 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Sylvia Stanger has always lived in the asphyxiating brick community around Canal Street in New York City in the fifties. She never stepped over the invisible line that separated the Jews from the Italians. She was a voluptuous woman in her thirties, married to Martin who worked at his uncle's shirtwaist factory, with two young daughters. One morning, an ordinary morning, something changed. Sylvia work up as usual one morning but the day was anything but usual. Sylvia's past came knocking on her door and she had to get out of bed in order to answer it. Or else! It is a subtle journey into madness. 'Poetica,' the Jewish Literary Magazine, chose 'Just Desserts' as a 2014-2015 fiction selection.
Download or read book A Dream Come True Billi Bear Medicine Woman and Spider written by Barbara Kennedy MPH MSW and published by Madison Avenue Publishers LLC. This book was released on 2017-04-27 with total page 39 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A brilliant portrayal of Cultural Diversity, by behaviorist Barbara Kennedy, who is also the author and narrator of “The Fox and the Hawk.” This gentle illustrated story will make you laugh and cry. The simplicity and clever repartee show the reader what love looks like, pure and simple. The story takes place in a small fishing town, Pink Salmon Bay, Alaska. The reader will understand some of the challenges in a community; what fear looks like, and "mob mentality" in the village. Annika Spider Woman says, “Fear and envy made them mean and stupid.” That was pretty direct and refreshing. This new wave of educating a very broad demographic, with no political agenda and no personal voices, is welcomed in the young reader section. The soft message is tucked inside the legends of the Indigenous Peoples’ Dream Catchers, the Mandalas; how they are made, what they mean, and how they are meant to be utilized. The Spider weaves the webs that will catch the best dreams for the children that Annika puts to bed each evening. The villagers teach Billi Bear to play ice hockey, and he shows them how to catch fish with their hands. Annika, a widow, is lonely and wishes for a family of her own. Spider tells her, " If there is a dream out there, we'll catch it." And she sets out to weave and tat an "installation" that will attract the most extraordinary dream come true. It does not disappoint Annika or the reader. For all ages.
Download or read book Kitch Arte written by Barbara Kennedy and published by eBookIt.com. This book was released on 2018-10 with total page 119 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: KITCH & ARTE Contemporary Art & Infographics Created by Barbara Kennedy How something that oozes out of a thin aluminum tube and onto a primed flat white canvas can convince you of the presence of a three-dimensional world, this translucent paste that conveys the fragrances of pasture and ocean, forest and rain, was to me holy. And I wanted to affect that. I wanted to paint. To see light; to manipulate light; to share it with those who believe, and show it to those who do not. Pundits were hard at work convincing me that a mathematical equation or physical methodology (a logarithm) could produce the same work and, with just as much depth of execution and feeling. Yet, I have never viewed a computer-generated piece of art that evoked me to tears. My work had already crossed over the line that divided art and craft. I was into feeling it organically, not just looking at a scene, owning it, or trading it. Painting with the tip of my nose was not outside my stream of executions, or behaviors, a critic once observed. "ART IS (r)-EVOLUTION. EDUCATION IS A PROCESS."
Download or read book The Holding Pen written by B. K. Smith and published by Madison Avenue Publishers LLC. This book was released on 2017-06-09 with total page 123 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A Modern Day Romance - if you can call it that. The quintessential Baby Boomer story of mid-life dating. HE lives in Connecticut, runs a high end home furnishings company, works in his garden, has his kids on the weekends, and attends law school at night in order to quell his boredom and loneliness. Oh, and he has a gaggle of women friends. SHE lives in a high-rise in NYC, trades stocks and bonds, has one child who spends a lot of time with his father, SHE attends literature classes at night to encourage her to read something other than financial news. There are snippets of the books she is reading and then a poem that she had to write and submit for the class. It is classic. SHE would like to find someone to love and possibly settle down with. They meet in a restaurant bar in New Canaan and begin a short interlude. Their dialogue is very real and one can only wonder how people do get together, commit, and marry. Never mind stay loyal. If you are out there looking for love, you will clearly see yourself.
Download or read book Slippery Ice written by Barbara Kennedy and published by Madison Avenue Publishers LLC. This book was released on 2020-03-12 with total page 139 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: ENJOINED, PEN & INK HAVE CHANGED THE WORLD. Pen is a general name for a writing tool that uses liquid pigment to leave a mark on a surface. This liquid pigment is called ink. Pen and ink drawings are loosely described as artwork executed wholly or in part with a pen and ink, usually on paper. Pen drawing is fundamentally a linear method of making images. The History of Pens begins in Ancient Egypt where Scribes, trying to find a replacement for the stylus and writing in clay, invented the reed pen made from a single reed straw that is pointed at one end and has a slit that leads the ink to the point and leaves the mark on the papyrus. But this pen didn't cut it, it was too rigid, and its point didn't last long. People started using quills--pens made from the molted flight feathers of large birds cured before use so it maintains the point longer. They were popular in the Western world from the 16th to the 19th century until the steel pen appeared. Ink is as old as pens - actually, even older. Ink is found in caves yet, and in patterns on ancient clothing. Henna is a vegetable-based ink. The artist, Barbara Kennedy, has been drawing and doodling with inks for 50 years. Some have faded interestingly, some are as brilliant as ever. This book of well over 100 drawings is a tribute to the relationship between the pen, the eye, and the hand. LIFE is a painting only you can execute. Start throwing paint, but first you must learn to draw.
Download or read book Sands Point Memoirs of a Money Trader written by B.K. Smith and published by Madison Avenue Publishers LLC. This book was released on 2014-11-07 with total page 182 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: These are the new go-go years, the eighties, and money is plentiful—custom-made designer clothes, champagne cocktails at Windows on the World, limousines lined up in front of the trendiest restaurants and private clubs along Park Avenue. The WTC is a beacon and venue for money traders. The US dollar is strong and cash, as always, is king. It is a decade of fast cars, fast markets, and fast talkers. And then the music stops. The yield curve is inverted, S&Ls are insolvent, OPEC is a dangerous cabal, Petrodollars and Eurodollars are flooding the financial markets, and countries are defaulting on loans. Billions of dollars disappear from the Vatican Bank, and the bank chairman, Roberto Calvi, is found "suicided" under the Blackfriars Bridge in London in 1982. Meg is an aspiring actress, married to Dick, a struggling director. They live over a deli in a walk-up tenement on the eastside. What she dreams of is being married to a filthy rich man and shopping at couture salons on Madison Ave. Becky is writing a novel, living in Sands Point on Long Island, married to Kevin, a successful money market broker on Wall Street pre-9/11. She has everything a woman could want, except love. Alex is a middle-aged playboy who owns several businesses in town, drives a sports car and fantasizes about both of these women—but he's married. They are all married. None happily. Is money the cause of all unhappiness—too little, too much, never enough—and is it the root of all evil? Meg, Becky, and Alex never suspect what is really going on and where they will ultimately end up. Can money manipulate their destinies? Or, is it fate? A novel of fast money, easy money, love, sex, betrayal, international scandal, embezzlement, and murder. A modern story of the profound and deadly effects of deception.
Download or read book Laina the Vamp written by B. K. Smith and published by eBookIt.com. This book was released on 2016-02-10 with total page 36 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: For every woman who ever loved a Vampire. "What is your passion?" Vladimir asked Laina. "White," she replied without hesitation. "I eat cottage cheese and pot cheese, farmer's cheese, ricotta, mozzarella, meringue, Reddi-whip, Cool Whip, mashed potatoes, white rice, spring turnips, and I drink non-fat milk and occasionally one glass of Chardonnay–maybe two." The Vampire watched her. Was she kidding? He was expecting something more like jewelry, lingerie, perfume. "My skin is very pale, you see," she continued, "I think I'm anemic." The Vampire muffled a groan, rolling his eyes in ecstasy. This made Laina unsure. After a noticeable interval, and out of sheer discomfort, she asked him the same question. "What is your passion?" Vladimir grew uneasy. His eyes moved to her watch and he smiled uncomfortably and then gazed off again. His favorite color was indeed black, possibly the only aesthetic principal he steadfastly maintained, but he had never been opposed to anything that smacked of style and excess, like red. Finally he leaned into her and answered, "You."
Download or read book DREAM CATCHERS Nature Meets Digital written by Barbara Kennedy and published by Madison Avenue Publishers LLC. This book was released on 2017-06-20 with total page 230 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Look inside a thing to know its wonder. Just like snowflakes, no two dream catchers--or dreams--are alike. Stick out your tongue and catch one on the very tip of it. Lick it. Roll it around on your tongue. Awaken your palate. Then take a bigger bite. Worst case, you’ll spit it out. Most likely, you’ll be back. It may take a while. We tend to fight it; it hurts so good. Dreams are sometimes bitter, sometimes sweet. But like a rare single malt Scotch in a crystal tumbler, you acquire a taste for it. You will want more. You will be back. Guaranteed. Everything you need has already been given to you. All you need to add is a dream and shake. Look up. Reach out. Catch a dream, ride a wave. Worst case, you fall out of bed. This book is best when downloaded onto a tablet or device where you can play with the photographs and expand them in order to travel through them and view the precision inner workings of nature. "Ancient legend originates with the Grandmother Spider, who sang the universe into existence but was saddened by the dreams of children." Photography is a marriage of light, subject, and time. An image is frozen in time, in a particular light, at a fractional moment, through a particular lens, and viewed by you. Thus, you become part of the ecology of the image. As you own the emotion evoked by the image, the original energy that snapped the camera in the first place, is re-energized and lives on in the energy you give to it, as the image continues to sensate. –The Ecology of Photography
Download or read book HORSENECK written by B. K. Smith and published by Madison Avenue Publishers, LLC. This book was released on 2016-11-03 with total page 214 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: "I finally detached with the understanding that people cannot give to you what they don’t have. I am not feeling the love because… And because of what was probably this unsatisfied need for affection, I have a history of trusting complete strangers, some of whom have, to their credit, risen to the occasion by displaying the kindness thus expected of others at the eleventh hour. I made friends easily. One day, impelled by mutual attraction, or curiosity, you strike up a conversation and discover shared interests and a new friendship is born. You try to live the same hopes and dreams, feeling at ease, even happy, and this friendship becomes part of your life, a little bit like family. Then treachery strikes and a great desolate wind sweeps away those dreams. Wounded and angry, you wish you were dead for ever thinking or believing and falling for it again. Then other similar mirages appear on the horizon, as you walk in your own landscape, and you rise to the occasion once again, and you are disappointed once again, and one fine day all that is left of your spirit is a tiny scar on your heart no bigger than a fingernail scratch. You no longer feel anything either. You no longer care. Only many years later, only when I had given myself passively to this lovelessness in the conviction that I had metamorphosed from a loveless childhood to the adulthood of more of the same, disappointment, betrayal and loss. Only with this wisdom had I come to believe in nothing, and only then was I surprised by love. What is the meaning of ordeal? You’ll know it when you know it. This book contains "Papier Mache Bowls - Vessels of Grieving." 42 full-color photographs,"The creative meaning of ordeal."
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Download or read book Nevada written by Imogen Binnie and published by MCD x FSG Originals. This book was released on 2022-06-07 with total page 288 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: One of Vogue's Best Books of 2022 So Far, Buzzfeed's Summer Books You Won’t Be Able To Put Down, Book Riot's Best Summer Reads for 2022, and Dazed's Queer Books to Read in 2022 "[Nevada] is defiant, terse, not quite cynical, sometimes flip, addressed to people who think they know. It is, if you like, punk rock." —The New Yorker "Nevada is a book that changed my life: it shaped both my worldview and personhood, making me the writer I am. And it did so by the oldest of methods, by telling a wise, hilarious, and gripping story." —Torrey Peters, author of Detransition, Baby A beloved and blistering cult classic and finalist for the Lambda Literary Award for Transgender Fiction finally back in print, Nevada follows a disaffected trans woman as she embarks on a cross-country road trip. Maria Griffiths is almost thirty and works at a used bookstore in New York City while trying to stay true to her punk values. She’s in love with her bike but not with her girlfriend, Steph. She takes random pills and drinks more than is good for her, but doesn’t inject anything except, when she remembers, estrogen, because she’s trans. Everything is mostly fine until Maria and Steph break up, sending Maria into a tailspin, and then onto a cross-country trek in the car she steals from Steph. She ends up in the backwater town of Star City, Nevada, where she meets James, who is probably but not certainly trans, and who reminds Maria of her younger self. As Maria finds herself in the awkward position of trans role model, she realizes that she could become James’s savior—or his downfall. One of the most beloved cult novels of our time and a landmark of trans literature, Imogen Binnie’s Nevada is a blistering, heartfelt, and evergreen coming-of-age story, and a punk-smeared excavation of marginalized life under capitalism. Guided by an instantly memorable, terminally self-aware protagonist—and back in print featuring a new afterword by the author—Nevada is the great American road novel flipped on its head for a new generation.
Download or read book We Are Okay written by Nina LaCour and published by Penguin. This book was released on 2017-02-14 with total page 242 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Winner of the 2018 Michael L. Printz Award — An achingly beautiful novel about grief and the enduring power of friendship. “Short, poetic and gorgeously written.” —The New York Times Book Review “A beautiful, devastating piece of art." —Bookpage You go through life thinking there’s so much you need. . . . Until you leave with only your phone, your wallet, and a picture of your mother. Marin hasn’t spoken to anyone from her old life since the day she left everything behind. No one knows the truth about those final weeks. Not even her best friend Mabel. But even thousands of miles away from the California coast, at college in New York, Marin still feels the pull of the life and tragedy she’s tried to outrun. Now, months later, alone in an emptied dorm for winter break, Marin waits. Mabel is coming to visit and Marin will be forced to face everything that’s been left unsaid and finally confront the loneliness that has made a home in her heart. An intimate whisper that packs an indelible punch, We Are Okay is Nina LaCour at her finest. This gorgeously crafted and achingly honest portrayal of grief will leave you urgent to reach across any distance to reconnect with the people you love. Praise for We Are Okay “Nina LaCour treats her emotions so beautifully and with such empathy.” —Bustle ★ “Exquisite.” —Kirkus ★ “LaCour paints a captivating depiction of loss, bewilderment, and emotional paralysis . . . raw and beautiful.” —Booklist ★ “Beautifully crafted . . . . A quietly moving, potent novel.” —SLJ ★ “A moving portrait of a girl struggling to rebound after everything she’s known has been thrown into disarray.” —Publishers Weekly ★"Bittersweet and hopeful . . . poetic and skillfully crafted." —Shelf Awareness “So lonely and beautiful that I could hardly breathe. This is a perfect book.” —Stephanie Perkins, bestselling author of Anna and the French Kiss “As beautiful as the best memories, as sad as the best songs, as hopeful as your best dreams.” —Siobhan Vivian, bestselling author of The Last Boy and Girl in the World “You can feel every peak and valley of Marin’s emotional journey on your skin, in your gut. Beautifully written, heartfelt, and deeply real.” —Adi Alsaid, author of Never Always Sometimes and Let’s Get Lost
Download or read book Simple Dreams written by Linda Ronstadt and published by Simon and Schuster. This book was released on 2014-09-02 with total page 256 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Includes discography (page 203-225) and index.
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