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Book All Romance  All The Time

Download or read book All Romance All The Time written by Gena Showalter and published by HQN Books. This book was released on 2015-03-01 with total page 446 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The title says it all…whether you like your romances small-town sweet, hot and steamy, or with a bit of danger, we have what you're looking for. Inside ALL ROMANCE, ALL THE TIME, you'll get a taste of 13 stories by some of our most popular and bestselling authors, at least one of whom is guaranteed to become your new romance go-to. So no matter if your toes curl for Regency rogues, wounded warriors, chiseled cowboys or the classic guy-next-door, prepare to lose yourself between the covers. Featuring titles from The Closer you Come by Gena Showalter, The Devil Takes a Bride by Julia London, Unfaded Glory by Sara Arden, Flirting with Disaster by Victoria Dahl, Wild Horses by B.J. Daniels, First Time in Forever by Sarah Morgan, One Wish by Robyn Carr, Holding Strong by Lori Foster, Part Time Cowboy by Maisey Yates, In Your Dreams by Kristan Higgins, When We Met by Susan Mallery, Wild Iris Ridge by RaeAnne Thayne, and The Tea Shop on Lavender Lane by Sheila Roberts.

Book Modern Romance

    Book Details:
  • Author : Aziz Ansari
  • Publisher : Penguin
  • Release : 2016-06-14
  • ISBN : 0143109251
  • Pages : 290 pages

Download or read book Modern Romance written by Aziz Ansari and published by Penguin. This book was released on 2016-06-14 with total page 290 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The #1 New York Times Bestseller “An engaging look at the often head-scratching, frequently infuriating mating behaviors that shape our love lives.” —Refinery 29 A hilarious, thoughtful, and in-depth exploration of the pleasures and perils of modern romance from Aziz Ansari, the star of Master of None and one of this generation’s sharpest comedic voices At some point, every one of us embarks on a journey to find love. We meet people, date, get into and out of relationships, all with the hope of finding someone with whom we share a deep connection. This seems standard now, but it’s wildly different from what people did even just decades ago. Single people today have more romantic options than at any point in human history. With technology, our abilities to connect with and sort through these options are staggering. So why are so many people frustrated? Some of our problems are unique to our time. “Why did this guy just text me an emoji of a pizza?” “Should I go out with this girl even though she listed Combos as one of her favorite snack foods? Combos?!” “My girlfriend just got a message from some dude named Nathan. Who’s Nathan? Did he just send her a photo of his penis? Should I check just to be sure?” But the transformation of our romantic lives can’t be explained by technology alone. In a short period of time, the whole culture of finding love has changed dramatically. A few decades ago, people would find a decent person who lived in their neighborhood. Their families would meet and, after deciding neither party seemed like a murderer, they would get married and soon have a kid, all by the time they were twenty-four. Today, people marry later than ever and spend years of their lives on a quest to find the perfect person, a soul mate. For years, Aziz Ansari has been aiming his comic insight at modern romance, but for Modern Romance, the book, he decided he needed to take things to another level. He teamed up with NYU sociologist Eric Klinenberg and designed a massive research project, including hundreds of interviews and focus groups conducted everywhere from Tokyo to Buenos Aires to Wichita. They analyzed behavioral data and surveys and created their own online research forum on Reddit, which drew thousands of messages. They enlisted the world’s leading social scientists, including Andrew Cherlin, Eli Finkel, Helen Fisher, Sheena Iyengar, Barry Schwartz, Sherry Turkle, and Robb Willer. The result is unlike any social science or humor book we’ve seen before. In Modern Romance, Ansari combines his irreverent humor with cutting-edge social science to give us an unforgettable tour of our new romantic world.

Book Outlander

    Book Details:
  • Author : Diana Gabaldon
  • Publisher : Dell
  • Release : 2004-10-26
  • ISBN : 0440335167
  • Pages : 560 pages

Download or read book Outlander written by Diana Gabaldon and published by Dell. This book was released on 2004-10-26 with total page 560 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: #1 NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER • NOW A STARZ ORIGINAL SERIES Unrivaled storytelling. Unforgettable characters. Rich historical detail. These are the hallmarks of Diana Gabaldon’s work. Her New York Times bestselling Outlander novels have earned the praise of critics and captured the hearts of millions of fans. Here is the story that started it all, introducing two remarkable characters, Claire Beauchamp Randall and Jamie Fraser, in a spellbinding novel of passion and history that combines exhilarating adventure with a love story for the ages. One of the top ten best-loved novels in America, as seen on PBS’s The Great American Read! Scottish Highlands, 1945. Claire Randall, a former British combat nurse, is just back from the war and reunited with her husband on a second honeymoon when she walks through a standing stone in one of the ancient circles that dot the British Isles. Suddenly she is a Sassenach—an “outlander”—in a Scotland torn by war and raiding clans in the year of Our Lord . . . 1743. Claire is catapulted into the intrigues of a world that threatens her life, and may shatter her heart. Marooned amid danger, passion, and violence, Claire learns her only chance of safety lies in Jamie Fraser, a gallant young Scots warrior. What begins in compulsion becomes urgent need, and Claire finds herself torn between two very different men, in two irreconcilable lives. This eBook includes the full text of the novel plus the following additional content: • An excerpt from Diana Gabaldon’s Dragonfly in Amber, the second novel in the Outlander series • An interview with Diana Gabaldon • An Outlander reader’s guide Praise for Outlander “Marvelous and fantastic adventures, romance, sex . . . perfect escape reading.”—San Francisco Chronicle “History comes deliciously alive on the page.”—New York Daily News

Book Hush  Hush

    Book Details:
  • Author : Lucia Franco
  • Publisher :
  • Release : 2023-04-03
  • ISBN :
  • Pages : 0 pages

Download or read book Hush Hush written by Lucia Franco and published by . This book was released on 2023-04-03 with total page 0 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A 2019 Stiletto Contest FinalistI knew the rules.Never reveal my true identity.Play the game, give the illusion.Don't get close to the clients.The dark and glamorous lifestyle of the rich and shameless open my eyes to a lavish world of sin and wealth, and a man I can't have.A man I desperately want-James Riviera.We're treading a fine line as we live the ultimate double life until we make a startling discovery that tests both our loyalties.I only had to follow the rules, but rules are meant to be broken.

Book How to Fall in Love with Anyone

Download or read book How to Fall in Love with Anyone written by Mandy Len Catron and published by Simon and Schuster. This book was released on 2017-06-27 with total page 211 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: “A beautifully written and well-researched cultural criticism as well as an honest memoir” (Los Angeles Review of Books) from the author of the popular New York Times essay, “To Fall in Love with Anyone, Do This,” explores the romantic myths we create and explains how they limit our ability to achieve and sustain intimacy. What really makes love last? Does love ever work the way we say it does in movies and books and Facebook posts? Or does obsessing over those love stories hurt our real-life relationships? When her parents divorced after a twenty-eight year marriage and her own ten-year relationship ended, those were the questions that Mandy Len Catron wanted to answer. In a series of candid, vulnerable, and wise essays that takes a closer look at what it means to love someone, be loved, and how we present our love to the world, “Catron melds science and emotion beautifully into a thoughtful and thought-provoking meditation” (Bookpage). She delves back to 1944, when her grandparents met in a coal mining town in Appalachia, to her own dating life as a professor in Vancouver. She uses biologists’ research into dopamine triggers to ask whether the need to love is an innate human drive. She uses literary theory to show why we prefer certain kinds of love stories. She urges us to question the unwritten scripts we follow in relationships and looks into where those scripts come from. And she tells the story of how she decided to test an experiment that she’d read about—where the goal was to create intimacy between strangers using a list of thirty-six questions—and ended up in the surreal situation of having millions of people following her brand-new relationship. “Perfect fodder for the romantic and the cynic in all of us” (Booklist), How to Fall in Love with Anyone flips the script on love. “Clear-eyed and full of heart, it is mandatory reading for anyone coping with—or curious about—the challenges of contemporary courtship” (The Toronto Star).

Book The All or Nothing Marriage

Download or read book The All or Nothing Marriage written by Eli J. Finkel and published by Penguin. This book was released on 2019-01-08 with total page 354 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: “After years of debate and inquiry, the key to a great marriage remained shrouded in mystery. Until now...”—Carol Dweck, author of Mindset: The New Psychology of Success Eli J. Finkel's insightful and ground-breaking investigation of marriage clearly shows that the best marriages today are better than the best marriages of earlier eras. Indeed, they are the best marriages the world has ever known. He presents his findings here for the first time in this lucid, inspiring guide to modern marital bliss. The All-or-Nothing Marriage reverse engineers fulfilling marriages—from the “traditional” to the utterly nontraditional—and shows how any marriage can be better. The primary function of marriage from 1620 to 1850 was food, shelter, and protection from violence; from 1850 to 1965, the purpose revolved around love and companionship. But today, a new kind of marriage has emerged, one oriented toward self-discover, self-esteem, and personal growth. Finkel combines cutting-edge scientific research with practical advice; he considers paths to better communication and responsiveness; he offers guidance on when to recalibrate our expectations; and he even introduces a set of must-try “lovehacks.” This is a book for the newlywed to the empty nester, for those thinking about getting married or remarried, and for anyone looking for illuminating advice that will make a real difference to getting the most out of marriage today.

Book No Tomorrow

    Book Details:
  • Author : Carian Cole
  • Publisher :
  • Release : 2018-09-13
  • ISBN : 9781959194125
  • Pages : 0 pages

Download or read book No Tomorrow written by Carian Cole and published by . This book was released on 2018-09-13 with total page 0 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The people we love are thieves.They steal our hearts.They steal our breath.They steal our sanity.And we let them. Over and over and over again.They say you never forget your first love. Mine was a homeless musician who wandered straight into my soul.Blue was my first everything. And fourteen years later, I still can't get him out of my head.He broke all my rules. He also broke my heart.I watched him climb to stardom, cheering him on from afar. But I was never a fan; just a girl in love.Like a tornado, he spiraled, leaving a path of destruction in his wake. But love conquers all, right? It has to. Because if there's one thing I'm sure of, it's that we love each other endlessly.When he came back into my life asking for another chance - armed with apologies, promises, and new beginnings - I couldn't have been happier.I thought I knew everything about him. But I was wrong. Blue was fighting an internal battle I never saw coming.He promised me every tomorrow. And here I am - holding on to hopes, dreams, and the healing power of love.* Authors Note: No Tomorrow will take you on a rollercoaster of emotions but has a guaranteed happily ever after.

Book Everything Romance

    Book Details:
  • Author : Todd Hafer
  • Publisher : WaterBrook
  • Release : 2012-01-31
  • ISBN : 030772932X
  • Pages : 288 pages

Download or read book Everything Romance written by Todd Hafer and published by WaterBrook. This book was released on 2012-01-31 with total page 288 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Romance is always in season when you’re in love. Ready to create romantic memories? If you’re looking for new and unique ways to celebrate love, captivate the heart of your true love, or simply enjoy each other’s company, Everything Romance offers all of this and much more. Inside you’ll find… Ways to engage your loved one with conversation starters for couples; Fun and creative date and gift ideas for any budget; Heartwarming love stories and poems; Love busters and love boosters to add fun, zing, and zest; Trivia about the history of love and romance; Recipes to fan the heartflames. Why wait for a special occasion to share the joy of being in love? Opening Everything Romance is like opening a door to romantic adventure—any day, any time! Any moment is the perfect time for you as a couple to celebrate the beauty and wonder of love, especially when you’re equipped with a treasure trove of creative ways to do so. With a rich array of romantic gems, Everything Romance abounds with all you need to show your adoration, revel in your relationship, and create a legacy of romance to last a lifetime.

Book The Greatest Historical Romance Novels of All Time

Download or read book The Greatest Historical Romance Novels of All Time written by Jane Austen and published by e-artnow. This book was released on 2021-04-02 with total page 15445 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: e-artnow presents to you the collection of the great love stories of the past, the best historical novels in one edition:_x000D_ Uarda: A Romance of Ancient Egypt (Georg Ebers)_x000D_ The New Abelard: Love in the Times of Cathedrals (Robert Williams Buchanan)_x000D_ Hildebrand: The Days of Queen Elizabeth (Anonymous) _x000D_ Love-at-Arms (Rafael Sabatini) _x000D_ The Making Of A Saint (W. Somerset Maugham) _x000D_ The Cloister and the Hearth (Charles Reade) _x000D_ The Princess of Cleves (Madame de La Fayette)_x000D_ The Forest Lovers (Maurice Hewlett) _x000D_ Malcolm (George MacDonald) _x000D_ Scarlet Letter: Love in the Colonial Period (Nathaniel Hawthorne) _x000D_ The Wild Irish Girl (Lady Sydney Morgan) _x000D_ Sophia (Stanley John Weyman) _x000D_ Paul and Virginia (Bernardin de Saint-Pierre) _x000D_ Memoirs of Emma Courtney (Mary Hays) _x000D_ Powder and Patch (Georgette Heyer)_x000D_ The Black Moth: A Romance of the XVIIIth Century (Georgette Heyer)_x000D_ The History of Miss Betsy Thoughtless (Eliza Haywood)_x000D_ Fantomina (Eliza Haywood)_x000D_ Olinda's Adventures (Catharine Trotter Cockburn)_x000D_ Belinda (Maria Edgeworth)_x000D_ Dangerous Liaisons (Pierre Choderlos de Laclos)_x000D_ Evelina (Fanny Burney)_x000D_ Pamela Trilogy_x000D_ Mary (Mary Wollstonecraft)_x000D_ Jane Austen:_x000D_ Pride & Prejudice_x000D_ Sense & Sensibility_x000D_ Mansfield Park_x000D_ Emma_x000D_ Persuasion_x000D_ Miss Marjoribanks & Phoebe, Junior (Mrs. Olifant)_x000D_ Vanity Fair (Thackeray)_x000D_ Mr. Rowl (D. K. Broster)_x000D_ The Battle of the Strong (Gilbert Parker)_x000D_ Kitty Alone (Sabine Baring-Gould) _x000D_ Sentimental Education (Gustave Flaubert) _x000D_ Lady Anna (Anthony Trollope)_x000D_ The Manoeuvring Mother (Lady Charlotte Bury)_x000D_ Ramona (Helen Hunt Jackson) _x000D_ Jane Eyre (Charlotte Brontë)_x000D_ Wuthering Heights (Emily Brontë)_x000D_ The Tenant of Wildfell Hall (Anne Brontë)_x000D_ The Lady of the Camellias (Alexandre Dumas)_x000D_ The Portrait of a Lady & The Wings of the Dove (Henry James)_x000D_ Anna Karenina (Leo Tolstoy)_x000D_ The Age of Innocence (Edith Wharton)_x000D_ Tess of the d'Urbervilles (Thomas Hardy)_x000D_ Bel Ami (Guy de Maupassant) _x000D_ The Squatter and the Don (María Ruiz de Burton) _x000D_ Maria Chapdelaine (Louis Hémon)_x000D_ The Four Feathers (A. E. W. Mason) _x000D_ The Miranda Trilogy (Grace Livingston Hill)_x000D_ The Great Gatsby (F. Scott Fitzgerald)

Book The Mammoth Book of Time Travel Romance

Download or read book The Mammoth Book of Time Travel Romance written by Trisha Telep and published by Hachette UK. This book was released on 2009-10-29 with total page 480 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Time travel romance is not the same thing as sci-fi romance, though some stories may be set in an imagined future; it is romantic fiction set in various different eras, usually from around the sixteenth to the eighteenth centuries. A woman may fall asleep in Central Park in the present to wake up in the arms of a Scottish laird in the sixteenth century. The Mammoth Book of Time Travel Romance contains 25 stories of adventure and love; settings include medieval Scotland, sixteenth-century England, the nineteenth-century 'Wild West'. Some stories are set in the present and a few in the future. Stories include an Elizabethan nobleman whisked into the present day, a troubled young woman who lands in the sixteenth century able to break a curse of lost love. Includes stories from: Nina Bangs, Jude Deveraux, Sandra Hill, Linda Howard, Lynn Kurland, Karen Marie Moning, and many more.

Book Can Love Last   The Fate of Romance over Time

Download or read book Can Love Last The Fate of Romance over Time written by Stephen A. Mitchell and published by W. W. Norton & Company. This book was released on 2003-02-17 with total page 228 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: "A beautiful and brilliant reexamination of love and its perils."—Barbara Fisher, Boston Globe Common wisdom has it that love is fragile, but leading psychoanalyst Stephen A. Mitchell argues that romance doesn't actually diminish in long-term relationships—it becomes increasingly dangerous. What we regard as the transience of love is really risk management. Mitchell shows that love can endure, if only we become aware of our self-destructive efforts to protect ourselves from its risks. "Those who read this book will love more wisely because of it."—Andrew Solomon, author of The Noonday Demon "[A] work on romance that is rich and multi-layered."—Publishers Weekly "Cheerful, open, and humane—you'd definitely have wanted him as your analyst."—Judith Shulevitz, The New York Times Book Review "[T]houghtful, compassionate, and profoundly optimistic."—JoAnn Gutin, Salon.com

Book Beyond Order

    Book Details:
  • Author : Jordan B. Peterson
  • Publisher : Penguin UK
  • Release : 2021-03-02
  • ISBN : 0241407656
  • Pages : 257 pages

Download or read book Beyond Order written by Jordan B. Peterson and published by Penguin UK. This book was released on 2021-03-02 with total page 257 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The inspirational sequel to 12 RULES FOR LIFE, which has sold over 5 million copies around the world - now in paperback In 12 Rules for Life, acclaimed public thinker and clinical psychologist Jordan B. Peterson offered an antidote to the chaos in our lives: eternal truths applied to modern anxieties. His insights have helped millions of readers and resonated powerfully around the world. Now in this long-awaited sequel, Peterson goes further, showing that part of life's meaning comes from reaching out into the domain beyond what we know, and adapting to an ever-transforming world. While an excess of chaos threatens us with uncertainty, an excess of order leads to a lack of curiosity and creative vitality. Beyond Order therefore calls on us to balance the two fundamental principles of reality - order and chaos - and reveals the profound meaning that can be found on the path that divides them. In times of instability and suffering, Peterson reminds us that there are sources of strength on which we can all draw: insights borrowed from psychology, philosophy, and humanity's greatest myths and stories. Drawing on the hard-won truths of ancient wisdom, as well as deeply personal lessons from his own life and clinical practice, Peterson offers twelve new principles to guide readers towards a more courageous, truthful and meaningful life.

Book Golden Chaos

    Book Details:
  • Author : Colette Rhodes
  • Publisher :
  • Release : 2021-04-20
  • ISBN :
  • Pages : 450 pages

Download or read book Golden Chaos written by Colette Rhodes and published by . This book was released on 2021-04-20 with total page 450 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Life isn't a fairytale, but for a few days I got to pretend it was. Now I'm back in my childhood bedroom in New York, eating breakup ice cream and listening to early 2000s emo music. Whatever, this was the wake-up call I needed. It's time for Ria 2.0. No more bailouts. No more half-baked projects. No more impulsive decisions. Simple, right? Except my ex-boyfriend wants to drop the ex part, the three bears aren't so willing to let their Goldilocks go, and their mother is more Wicked Witch than Mama Bear. How am I supposed to pull it together when chaos follows everywhere I go? Golden Chaos is book two of the Three Bears duet. It is a medium burn, reverse harem romance for readers 18+

Book All About Love

Download or read book All About Love written by bell hooks and published by HarperCollins. This book was released on 2018-01-30 with total page 272 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A New York Times bestseller and enduring classic, All About Love is the acclaimed first volume in feminist icon bell hooks' "Love Song to the Nation" trilogy. All About Love reveals what causes a polarized society, and how to heal the divisions that cause suffering. Here is the truth about love, and inspiration to help us instill caring, compassion, and strength in our homes, schools, and workplaces. “The word ‘love’ is most often defined as a noun, yet we would all love better if we used it as a verb,” writes bell hooks as she comes out fighting and on fire in All About Love. Here, at her most provocative and intensely personal, renowned scholar, cultural critic and feminist bell hooks offers a proactive new ethic for a society bereft with lovelessness--not the lack of romance, but the lack of care, compassion, and unity. People are divided, she declares, by society’s failure to provide a model for learning to love. As bell hooks uses her incisive mind to explore the question “What is love?” her answers strike at both the mind and heart. Razing the cultural paradigm that the ideal love is infused with sex and desire, she provides a new path to love that is sacred, redemptive, and healing for individuals and for a nation. The Utne Reader declared bell hooks one of the “100 Visionaries Who Can Change Your Life.” All About Love is a powerful, timely affirmation of just how profoundly her revelations can change hearts and minds for the better.

Book Romancing the Beat

    Book Details:
  • Author : Gwen Hayes
  • Publisher : Createspace Independent Publishing Platform
  • Release : 2016
  • ISBN : 9781530838615
  • Pages : 0 pages

Download or read book Romancing the Beat written by Gwen Hayes and published by Createspace Independent Publishing Platform. This book was released on 2016 with total page 0 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: What makes a romance novel a romance? How do you write a kissing book?Writing a well-structured romance isn't the same as writing any other genre-something the popular novel and screenwriting guides don't address. The romance arc is made up of its own story beats, and the external plot and theme need to be braided to the romance arc-not the other way around.Told in conversational (and often irreverent) prose, Romancing the Beat can be read like you are sitting down to coffee with romance editor and author Gwen Hayes while she explains story structure. The way she does with her clients. Some of whom are regular inhabitants of the New York Times and USA Today bestseller lists.Romancing the Beat is a recipe, not a rigid system. The beats don't care if you plot or outline before you write, or if you pants your way through the drafts and do a "beat check" when you're revising. Pantsers and plotters are both welcome. So sit down, grab a cuppa, and let's talk about kissing books.

Book All Men Are Jerks   Until Proven Otherwise  15th Anniversary Edition

Download or read book All Men Are Jerks Until Proven Otherwise 15th Anniversary Edition written by Daylle Deanna Schwartz and published by Simon and Schuster. This book was released on 2013-02-18 with total page 225 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Men Really Can Be Jerks* *But Only If You Let Them. Like millions of women, Daylle Deanna Schwartz had a habit of falling for jerks--until she had enough. This cycle wasn't going to change until she made a change herself. And now in this anniversary edition of her groundbreaking relationship book, she shows you how to do the same. This book tells it like it is. The only person who can make you happy is you, and the only person who can change a guy is himself. It's time to take control and make him prove he's not a jerk, or move on. As a relationship expert and self-empowerment counselor, Daylle's guidance will motivate you to develop a satisfying, healthy relationship, without playing games. With fresh insight and new stories throughout, this updated edition of All Men Are Jerks - Until Proven Otherwise makes your happiness your first priority. Men can act like real jerks, but complaining about them won't get you anywhere. It's time to take control of how men treat you--and get the love you deserve!

Book All Alone in a Sea of Romance

Download or read book All Alone in a Sea of Romance written by B. G. Thomas and published by Dreamspinner Press LLC. This book was released on 2012-10-05 with total page 0 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: I'm Jude Parks, writer of gay romances. Even though I'm good at what I do, the irony is that I haven't exactly been lucky in love. My friend Jeannie says it's because I settle for Mr. Right Now instead of holding out for Mr. Forever. I say I'd rather regret what I have done than what I haven't. I only came to Romantic Voyages, the biggest romance convention in the country, for business. Yet in no time I got mixed up with a gorgeous cover model, weeping artists, drag queens, and crazy housewives--and became the prime suspect in a murder investigation. Well, they say any press is good press. Maybe I should've stayed home. But then I never would've met Tommy Smith, the craziest, most outrageous, silly, sexy man I've ever known--a man who makes me wonder if it may be worth holding out for Mr. Forever. A man who might turn my rotten luck around. But only if we survive the weekend and I clear my name....