Download or read book My Dad the Paedophile written by Orsiela Wiese and published by . This book was released on 2020-03-06 with total page 264 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: This is a biography of a girl that suffered tremendouchild abuse at the hand of her father from the age of two years old. Her father, a paedophile, used various techniques to sexually groom her as a child; which included acts of torture to obey. Her mother turned a blind eye to hold onto financial assistance from the father. The molestation gradually grew to drug-induced rapes and hypnotism to not remember the rapes. After two abortions before the age of eighteen, she started suffering from Traumatic Amnesia and Disassociative Amnesia to learn to cope. She lived with amnesia not knowing about her childhood abuse, until she turned thirty-two years old and starting having flashbacks of what happened to her. This left her feeling that she was slowly losing her mind. Did her twin brother also suffer the sexual abuse? Was her mother also subjected to the amnesia? This is her journey to healing from the traumatic abuse. This journey includes the flashbacks as it happened, at the exact time it happened.Extract:"Every time I kneel over her to give her the breath of live, I feel her lips... soft... slightly warm... pink in the inside. Oh no! Her eyes are halfway open, but it is lifeless. How could her mother just let her on her own at the swimming pool if she could not swim? Could nobody see that she was in trouble? I hear a man say, "I was in the pool about ten to fifteen minutes ago, and stepped on something soft on the bottom. I did not know it was her." I wanted to scream "Good Lord! Why did you not at least just look to see what it was?For a while, I am lost. Then I see my son Rico (9 years old) and my daughter Estralita (11 years old) still standing there. Their father passed away not even four months ago! They need me. How must they feel experiencing a second accidental death in four months? Never did I know that this event would change my life, and make me whole again. Only later could I understand why I took this incident so personal, and why I saw myself in little Rose.I started getting flashbacks that made no sense to me:"I hear 'whoop' as he pulls the blankets off me. I am freezing cold. I am naked, lying on my back. The light is on in my room. I am so cold. It is taking so long... I wish he would just finish so I could get my blankets back. Please cover me with the blankets, before you carry on raping me. I can't speak. I can't move. Please just cover me. I am freezing cold. Please... The cold is becoming as big as my mind. Or, am I making it that big not to focus on what is happening? I can't think of anything else. It is so cold. Please cover me. I can't cover myself. Why is he taking so long? All I want is my blankets. That is all, just my blankets. Please. How could he be such a monster that he does not even realize that I am freezing? I want to cry. I know that I can't do anything about this. I know that I have to wait. "God, I am so cold. It is me Aleiso, please help me." I must resist the cold, because that is all I can do... Is there somebody out there that can come and cover me? Help me! My whole body is shaking from the inside right down to my hands. I have never been this cold before in my life. "Please. I am begging you. Won't you please just finish? Or at least just cover me, and then you carry on. I can not move a finger." I surrender. It is not going to happen. I have to wait. It takes long. I cry. I become despondent. Then I feel the blankets fall over my shoulders. It is immediately a bit warmer. I am eternally thankful. Thank you. It feels much better. You are done. Now I can sleep again. Thank you very much Dad. Without further ado, I like you again. You were nice to me now by covering me with the blankets. It is nice and warm. I am going to sleep now...."I woke up in my son's room. There were seven blankets over me, but I was shaking like a leaf. "Where am I? Was there somebody in the house? No! I have been raped! By my Dad? No, it cn't be. I am losing my mind!"
Download or read book My Father Was a Pedophile written by Bella Randall and published by Xlibris Corporation. This book was released on 2016-05-18 with total page 105 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: This is the story of rape, incest, broken bones, blackened eyes and murder. Murder, you gasp! Yes, the murder of innocence of three children in North Carolina in the 1950s and 1960s. To say it was a dysfunctional family is much too kind. But it has been said that a young child remains dependent, even devoted, to the parents who brutalize him or her because they are the only parents and the only experience the child knows. I am telling only my story. My sister and brother have a story that is only theirs to tell. Now that my story is finally told, I hope I will be able to put it to rest at last. If I can use what happened to me to help others, that is the biggest lesson I have learned. Maybe my suffering can be used to save other children and women. That is my plan.
Download or read book My Daddy the Pedophile written by Lily Palazzi and published by Long Ear Press. This book was released on 2018-10-13 with total page 226 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: After years of suffering multiple forms of abuse, a vulnerable young girl flees her home only to land straight into the arms of her biological father-a sexual predator. My Daddy the Pedophile tells the harrowing true story of a teenage girl's affair with her manipulative sociopathic father. After a terrible dark secret comes to light, the real story unfolds."If you are easily shocked by what occurs behind closed doors in some average suburban neighborhoods, do not read this book. If you want to read a riveting tale of manipulation, abuse, and courageous healing, then this is the book for you." -Sharyn Higdon Jones, MFT, author of Healing Steps: A Gentle Path to Recovery for Survivors of Childhood Sexual Abuse"Lily Palazzi's memoir, My Daddy the Pedophile is a riveting, well-paced account of both how her father's calculated manipulation of her desperate need to be loved subjected her to the wounding distortions of incest and how through therapy and the true love of her husband she ultimately finds the healing she had once thought would never be possible." -Catherine McCall, author of the international bestseller Never Tell: A True Story of Overcoming a Terrifying Childhood
Download or read book My Dad The Pedophile written by Orsiela Wiese and published by . This book was released on 2020-11-26 with total page 440 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: When Aleiso started getting flashbacks as an adult mother of two about horrendous child abuse she endured as a child, her therapist advised her to document her journey in real-time. It resulted in a book that not only recalled her childhood, but also provides detailed information about the healing process. It also offers a deeper understanding into various aspects of child abuse. It is surely one of the most complete books on this topic because it can not only be used as a handbook in psychiatry, but can also serve as a self-help book for victims of abuse. It provides a deep understanding of the emotional pain victims of abuse experience after the abuse.Symptoms of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Dissociative Amnesia, Drug-Induced Rapes, Effects of Date-Rape Drugs, Triggers That Causes Flashbacks, The Behavior of Flashbacks, Denial, Suppressed Memories vs Repressed memories, Explicit and Implicit Memories, Hypnotic Amnesia, Anterograde and Retrograde Amnesia, The Abuser's Techniques to Force Compliance, Traits of an Abuser, Analyzing The Consequences of Abuse On A Victim, Changing Imprinted Behavior, and Forgiving the Abuser; are a few off the topics discussed in this book.
Download or read book The Boy in the Cellar written by Stephen Smith and published by John Blake. This book was released on 2019-12-26 with total page 285 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Stephen Smith is the boy who did not exist. Born out of wedlock in the early 1960s, Steve's parents hid him away from the world by locking him in the cellar...for thirteen years. Starved and beaten, the little boy's world was a darkened room that measured just eight feet by ten with a single makeshift bed, bare light bulb, and a solitary table. Steve would spend his days conjuring up an imaginary world full of monsters he would draw to try and block out the physical and mental torture inflicted on him by his brutal father. Apart from a few admissions to hospital as a result of his 'imprisonment', Steve remained in the coal cellar of the family home where he was deprived of daylight, his childhood, school, and human contact until he'd reached his teenage years. Eventually, he escaped only to fall prey to the instigators of two of the worst cases of institutional abuse in the UK at Aston Hall hospital and St. William's Catholic School. The Boy in the Cellar is a horrifying true story of torture and cruelty, that reveals a human's full capacity to fight for survival and search out happiness and hope.
Download or read book The Mind of the Paedophile written by Loretta R. Loeb and published by Routledge. This book was released on 2018-03-29 with total page 255 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The Mind of the Paedophile discusses one of the most controversial and misunderstood subjects in the psychoanalytic arena today - paedophilia. A variety of treatments and therapies, including brain surgery, electric shock treatment and incarceration, have not succeeded in treating this condition. In this volume, a range of eminent and expert professionals go further: into the mind of the paedophile, using dream interpretation, free association, fantasies and memories, in a bid to comprehend the exact nature; the how, when and why, of paedophilia.
Download or read book In My Father s Arms written by Walter A. de Milly and published by Univ of Wisconsin Press. This book was released on 1999-10-10 with total page 144 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: first paperback edition: To the outside world, Walter de Milly's father was a prominent businessman, a dignified Presbyterian, and a faithful husband; to Walter, he was an overwhelming, handsome monster. This paperback edition of In My Father's Arms: A Son's Story of Sexual Abuse adds a reflective preface by the author and a foreword by Richard B. Gartner, author of Beyond Betrayal: Taking Charge of Your Life after Boyhood Sexual Abuse. "A sensitive and compelling account of father-son incest. In spite of the suffering portrayed, the account also gives testimony to the strength of family bonds, and to the courage and resilience of the human spirit."—Fred S. Berlin, MD, Director of the National Institute for the Study, Prevention and Treatment of Sexual Trauma "This is the most detailed and utterly plausible account I've ever read of what it feels like to be an abused child, and it is told with cinematic presence and verisimilitude. The anger, the love, the evasiveness and jealousy and confusion, the need to dissociate oneself from one's own actions and reactions—all are presented in a harrowing narrative, which is as tragic as a Greek drama and as engrossing as a Victorian novel. The unexpected element in this book—which falls on it like manna—is its nourishing, exquisite lyricism."—Edmund White, author of A Boy's Own Story cloth: "Walter de Milly has written a sensitive and compelling account of father-son incest. In spite of the suffering portrayed, the account also gives testimony to the strength of family bonds, and to the courage and resilience of the human spirit."—Fred S. Berlin, M.D., Director of the National Institute for the Study, Prevention and Treatment of Sexual Trauma "This is the most detailed and utterly plausible account I've ever read of what it feels like to be an abused child, and it is told with cinematic presence and verisimilitude. The anger, the love, the evasiveness and jealousy and confusion, the need to dissociate oneself from one's own actions and reactions—all are presented in a harrowing narrative, which is as tragic as a Greek drama and as engrossing as a Victorian novel. The unexpected element in this book—which falls on it like manna—is its nourishing, exquisite lyricism."—Edmund White The TV-perfect family of Walter de Milly III was like many others in the American South of the 1950s—seemingly close-knit, solidly respectable, and active in the community. Tragically, Walter's deeply troubled father would launch his family on a perilous journey into darkness. To the outside world, this man is a prominent businessman, a dignified Presbyterian, and a faithful husband; to Walter, he is an overwhelming, handsome monster. Whenever the two are together, young Walter becomes a sexual plaything for his father; father and son outings are turned into soul-obliterating nightmares. Walter eventually becomes a successful businessman only to be stricken by another catastrophe: his father, at the age of seventy, is caught molesting a young boy. Walter is asked to confront his father. Walter convenes his family, and in a private conference with a psychiatrist, the father agrees to be surgically castrated. De Milly's portraits of his relationships with his father and mother, and the confrontation that leads to his father's bizarre and irreversible voluntary "cure," are certain to be remembered long after the reader has set aside this powerful contribution to the literature of incest survival. Walter de Milly is a writer living in Key West, Florida.
Download or read book Broken I was just five years old when my father abused me and robbed me of my childhood This is my true story of how I never gave up on hope and happiness written by Sara Davies and published by Kings Road Publishing. This book was released on 2013-05-06 with total page 173 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Sara Davies' story is one of abuse, neglect, betrayal and, ultimately, survival. When she was just 5 years old, her violent father began to sexually abuse her. She suffered in silence for many years, as her father took advantage of her innocence and her mother turned a blind eye to the horrors that were taking place in her own home. It was only when Sara found the courage to tell her mother what had happened that the truth about the trauma and abuse she had suffered came out. In an attempt to rebuild her life, as a teenager, Sara became a model but even this choice was to lead to more misery when she discovered that the agency had been drugging and abusing her. Despite the horrors that Sara has endured, she has survived and, partly by telling her story, has overcome the past to re-build her life.
Download or read book Kiss Daddy Goodnight written by Louise Armstrong and published by New York : Hawthorn Books. This book was released on 1978 with total page 296 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt:
Download or read book Understanding and Addressing Adult Sexual Attraction to Children written by Sarah Goode and published by Routledge. This book was released on 2009-07-07 with total page 261 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Paedophiles exist and we must develop ways of living with this fact whilst ensuring that children are kept safe. This ground-breaking book demystifies the field of adult sexual attraction to children, countering the emotionality surrounding the topic of paedophilia in the popular media by careful presentation of research data and interview material. Addressing how we can work together to reduce sexual offending in this population, this text bridges the gulf in understanding between those who want to protect children and those who feel sexual attraction to children – and recognises that they are sometimes the same people. Sarah D. Goode provides an overview of the topic by defining the term 'paedophile' and discussing how many adults there may be in the general population who find themselves sexually attracted to children. She looks at how the Internet has acted as an enabler, with an explosion of child pornography and 'pro-paedophile' websites. Drawing on data from a sample of fifty-six self-defined paedophiles living in the community, she explores themes including self-identity, the place of fantasy and the forms of support available to paedophiles. Her research highlights the scale of debate within the 'online paedophile community' about issues such as the morality of sexual contact with children and encouragement to maintain a law-abiding lifestyle. Throughout, she draws careful distinctions between sexual attraction to children and sexual contact with children. The book concludes with a valuable discussion on how adult sexual contact harms children and examples of a range of initiatives which work to protect children and prevent offending. Suitable for all professionals who work with children or sexual offenders, this book gives clear guidance on what one needs to know and do to ensure children are kept safe. It will also be of interest to students studying child protection, paedophilia and child sexual abuse within other social science disciplines.
Download or read book Just Ignore Him written by Alan Davies and published by Little, Brown Book Group. This book was released on 2020-09-01 with total page 164 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: 'A simply astonishing achievement. The quality, depth, emotional power and terrifying honesty of Alan Davies's story-telling take the breath away' Stephen Fry 'This hugely affecting book is brave, insightful and, at times, funny about things it is hard to be funny about' Jo Brand The story of a life built on sand. In the rain. In this compelling memoir, comedian and actor Alan Davies recalls his boyhood with vivid insight and devastating humour. Shifting between his 1970s upbringing and his life today, Davies moves poignantly from innocence to experience to the clarity of hindsight, always with a keen sense of the absurd. From sibling dynamics, to his voiceless, misunderstood progression through school, sexuality and humiliating 'accidents', Davies inhabits his younger mind with spectacular accuracy, sharply evoking an era when Green Shield Stamps, Bob-a-Job week and Whizzer & Chips loomed large, a bus fare was 2p - and children had little power in the face of adult motivation. Here, there are often exquisitely tender recollections of the mother he lost at six years old, of a bereaved family struggling to find its way, and the kicks and confusion of adolescence. Through even the joyous and innocent memories, the pain of Davies's lifelong grief and profound betrayal is unfiltered, searing and beautifully articulated. Just Ignore Him is not only an autobiography, it is a testament to a survivor's resilience and courage.
Download or read book My Fathers Prostitute Story of a Stolen Childhood written by Steven Whitacre and published by Lulu.com. This book was released on 2014-02-07 with total page 138 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: "Powerful," "Compelling," "A story well worth writing" - this is what people are saying about this honest, and sometimes brutal, true story of one man's struggle growing up in the shadow of childhood sexual abuse. From his difficulties growing up, to his drug addiction, failed relationships, and struggles with parenthood, the author takes us through the ups and downs of a life spent in the shadows, trying to make sense of the events that formed the basis of his being. Sometimes tragic, sometimes hopeful, but never sugar coated, My Father's Prostitute: Story of a Stolen Childhood takes the reader on an emotional ride which reminds us that the human spirit is more powerful than the demons that haunt us.
Download or read book Suzy Suzy written by William Wall and published by Bloomsbury Publishing. This book was released on 2019-04-25 with total page 262 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A startling and gripping novel, Suzy, Suzy follows a teenage girl trying to understand the chaos of her family life. Suzy lives in a dysfunctional household. She can't stand her mother; her father is keeping secrets; and her brother only seems to egg on their parents' erratic and unpredictable behaviour. Alongside her friends, Suzy finds herself drawn into the downward spiral of her parents' relationship, and as a result is drawn into the centre of a mystery surrounding a murder. Forced to make impossible choices, Suzy must navigate the increasingly disturbing antics of her family and the oddities of the mystery she finds herself involved in, while also trying to survive the horrors of secondary school. Narrated by a troubled young woman, the novel weaves a tale of secrets, lies and betrayal in the pressure cooker of her formative years. William Wall is an underrated Irish master with a powerful, distinctive writing style, and an uncanny ability to create astonishingly complex and well-realised female protagonists.
Download or read book Adam Geoffrey Michael Conroy Genius written by Adam Conroy and published by Author House. This book was released on 2013 with total page 103 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Adam Geoffrey Michael Conroy genius is the autobiography of Adam Geoffrey Michael Conroy The book includes all the important events of Adam's life from early childhood to adulthood. The book includes Adam's time at school and how he dealt with the bullies.
Download or read book Why Gary Why written by Jody Plauché and published by . This book was released on 2019 with total page 224 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: "Deputy Mike Barnett asked Gary Plauchâe, "Why, Gary? Gary, why?" seconds after television cameras recorded Gary shooting and killing karate instructor Jeff Doucet, who had raped, molested, and kidnapped Gary's son Jody. Now, thirty-five years later, Jody Plauchâe answers the deputy's question on behalf of his late father and explores the story of his molestation, kidnapping, and survival. He unveils the sly tactics that child predators often use so that he can better inform parents of the potential signs that a person might harm their child. Through his own incredible story of using his past for good by helping others, he shares how any reader who has suffered great trauma can move on and not let the past define him or her. You have the potential to overcome negativity and redefine your own story"--
Download or read book Never a Hero To Me written by Tracy Black and published by Simon and Schuster. This book was released on 2011-05-12 with total page 239 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A shocking and compelling memoir of a young girl's childhood spent suffering abuse at the hands of her father and his friends. Tracy Black was only five years old when her mother was hospitalised for the first of many occasions, leaving Tracy in the care of her father. His behaviour, seemingly overnight, changed from indifferent to violently abusive and, for the next seven years, Tracy was sexually and physically abused by her father, his friends and her own brother. All of the men were in the British Armed Forces. Tracy's father compounded the abuse by sending her to baby-sit for his paedophile friends - whilst their own children slept in other rooms, these men would find excuses to leave later or return earlier than their wives in order to abuse her, with her own father's blessing. When she sought help and safety the doors were closed as the authorities closed ranks. In this shocking and compelling book, Tracy Black pieces together the jigsaw of a story that has haunted her for the past forty years. She reveals the horrific betrayal of trust perpetrated by men who were considered upstanding citizens and heroes. Tracy's tale reminds us all of the terrible ways in which paedophiles work and the secrets too many children are forced to carry alone. It is only now that she can tell her full story of recovery. This truly inspirational story will appeal to readers of Trisha Merry and Cathy Glass.
Download or read book Trauma and the Avoidant Client Attachment Based Strategies for Healing written by Robert T. Muller and published by W. W. Norton & Company. This book was released on 2010-07-19 with total page 217 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Winner, 2011 Written Media Award, International Society for Study of Trauma & Dissociation. How to effectively engage traumatized clients, who avoid attachment, closeness, and painful feelings. A large segment of the therapy population consist of those who are in denial or retreat from their traumatic experiences. Here, drawing on attachment-based research, the author provides clinical techniques, specific intervention strategies, and practical advice for successfully addressing the often intractable issues of trauma. Trauma and the Avoidant Client will enhance the skills of all mental health practitioners and trauma workers, and will serve as a valuable, useful resource to facilitate change and progress in psychotherapy.
