Download or read book Confession of a Drug Dealing Junkie Teenager written by Jonathan Dillon and published by . This book was released on 2005-04 with total page 252 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: I'm the one you ignore, the guy sleeping on the other side of study hall, the boy who smokes after school, the quiet kid away from the dance floor, the jerk who brings a gun to class, the loser you talk about behind my back, the drug dealer you'll eventually need because only I can offer you that brief escape from the shit that you refer to as your life, the answer to your prayers, the begining of your nightmares... that's me, Richard Blair.
Download or read book Confessions of a Teenage Drug Addict written by Destiny Dumont and published by . This book was released on 2012 with total page 0 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt:
Download or read book Braverman written by Jeffrey Wachman and published by . This book was released on 2016-01-13 with total page 232 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: There have been two great surprises in my life. The first surprise is that I became a teenage drug dealer. The second surprise is that I didn't die one. But, I was stubborn and charming and determined to use those talents to better my family's life. This book is based on my life. It isn't the whole story, because I am sure that none of the people running with me then would like their identities revealed. So, out of respect for their privacy, or fear of their retaliation, I have changed names and characteristics that would give away the identity of folks who do not wish to be identified. This book is honest even if some of the details here are fictional. And what the honesty of this project has allowed me to see is that not too long ago, I was a bad guy who did very bad things to a lot of people. I wasn't all bad though, and I had my reasons, but it was a dark, dark time and I took a lot of people I loved through it with me, for reasons I am still struggling with. --Jeffrey Wachman
Download or read book The Joy of Addiction Confessions of a Teenage Wastrel written by Sebastian Wocker and published by . This book was released on 2022-02-02 with total page 316 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt:
Download or read book Cocaine Fiends and Reefer Madness written by Michael Starks and published by Ronin Publishing. This book was released on 2015-04-28 with total page 254 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: From the very beginning, filmmakers have struggled to free themselves from censorship and manipulation by special-interest groups, and this struggle is clearly evident in the history of drug films. Cocaine Fiends and Reefer Madness is an exhaustive exploration of the history of the depiction of psychoactive drugs in motion pictures from Thomas Edison's Opium Smoker (1894) to Cocaine Cowboys (1978), Included are over 400 silent and 1,000 sound films as well as nearly 500 drug-abuse films, 85 experimental films, and 135 television programs. More than 150 stills, most never before published and many extremely rare, illustrate the text. Arranged chronologically as well as by drug type and often by country, this book shows that, far from being a recent phenomenon, drug films were made in nearly every country and period that produced a significant body of films. Visit Edison's first film studio, reflect on the filmic consequences of Cocteau's opium addiction with Kenneth Anger's early experiences with magic mushrooms, see Charles Laughton smuggling cocaine inside a statute of the Buddha, and watch Douglas Fairbanks, Sr., consuming vast quantities of opium and cocaine in a World War I Sherlock Holmes parody.
Download or read book On Drugs written by Chris Fleming and published by Giramondo Publishing. This book was released on 2019-08-01 with total page 304 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A memoir of intoxication like no other, On Drugs explores Chris Fleming’s experience of drug addiction, which begins while he is a student before escalating into a life-threatening compulsion. A philosopher by training, Fleming combines meticulous observation of his life with a keen sense of the absurdity of his actions. He describes the intricacies of drug use and acquisition, their impact on the intellect and emotions, and the chaos that emerges as his tightly managed existence unravels into arrests, hospitalisations and family breakdown. His account is accompanied by searching reflections on his childhood, during which he developed acute obsessive compulsive disorder and became fixated on martial arts, music-making and bodybuilding. In confronting the pathos and comedy of drug use, On Drugs also opens out into meditations on the self and its deceptions, on popular culture, religion and mental illness, and the tortuous path to recovery. ‘Philosopher Chris Fleming’s memoir is a searching, considered account of drug and alcohol use and the mechanisms of addiction. Fleming traces his history of marijuana, codeine-based painkillers and alcohol consumption, as his fluctuating control over his drug use ultimately deteriorates….As well as being an engaging writer, Fleming is skilled at pulling a diverse array of academic theory and ideas into his memoir, and making them relevant to his project of understanding addiction.’ — Brad Jefferies, Books+Publishing
Download or read book Confessions of a Cartel Hit Man written by Martin Corona and published by Penguin. This book was released on 2017-07-25 with total page 322 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The true confession of an assassin, a sicario, who rose through the ranks of the Southern California gang world to become a respected leader in an elite, cruelly efficient crew of hit men for Mexico's "most vicious drug cartel," and eventually found a way out and an (almost) normal life. Martin Corona, a US citizen, fell into the outlaw life at twelve and worked for a crew run by the Arellano brothers, founders of the the Tijuana drug cartel that dominated the Southern California drug trade and much bloody gang warfare for decades. Corona's crew would cross into the United States from their luxurious hideout in Mexico, kill whoever needed to be killed north of the border, and return home in the afternoon. That work continued until the arrest of Javier Arellano-Félix in 2006 in a huge coordinated DEA operation. Martin Corona played a key role in the downfall of the cartel when he turned state's evidence. He confessed to multiple murders. Special Agent of the California Department of Justice Steve Duncan, who wrote the foreword, says Martin Corona is the only former cartel hit man he knows who is truly remorseful. Martin's father was a US Marine. The family had many solid middle-class advantages, including the good fortune to be posted in Hawaii for a time during which a teenage Martin thought he might be able to turn away from the outlaw life of theft, drug dealing, gun play, and prostitution. He briefly quit drugs and held down a job, but a die had been cast. He soon returned to a gangbanging life he now deeply regrets. How does someone become evil, a murderer who can kill without hesitation? This story is an insight into how it happened to one human being and how he now lives with himself. He is no longer a killer; he has asked for forgiveness; he has made a kind of peace for himself. He wrote letters to family members of his victims. Some of them not only wrote back but came to support him at his parole hearings. It is a cautionary tale, but also one that shows that evil doesn't have to be forever.
Download or read book Pink Tootsie written by T.M. Raskin and published by Page Publishing Inc. This book was released on 2020-11-05 with total page 390 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Not everyone is ready for what I divulge. Some may think I go too far. People have asked me what the catalyst of my drug addiction was. I look inside myself and try to answer honestly. But there is no "one" thing. I believe it was a combination of many things starting with my lineage. Most have heard of Yin and Yang, Nature vs Nurture and Karma but these are only theories. In an attempt to answer the question I have put my life story, from conception to 21 years old into "Pink
Download or read book Memoirs of an Addicted Brain written by Marc Lewis and published by Doubleday Canada. This book was released on 2011-10-04 with total page 322 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A gripping, ultimately triumphant memoir that's also the most comprehensive and comprehensible study of the neuroscience of addiction written for the general public. FROM THE INTRODUCTION: "We are prone to a cycle of craving what we don't have, finding it, using it up or losing it, and then craving it all the more. This cycle is at the root of all addictions, addictions to drugs, sex, love, cigarettes, soap operas, wealth, and wisdom itself. But why should this be so? Why are we desperate for what we don't have, or can't have, often at great cost to what we do have, thereby risking our peace and contentment, our safety, and even our lives?" The answer, says Dr. Marc Lewis, lies in the structure and function of the human brain. Marc Lewis is a distinguished neuroscientist. And, for many years, he was a drug addict himself, dependent on a series of dangerous substances, from LSD to heroin. His narrative moves back and forth between the often dark, compellingly recounted story of his relationship with drugs and a revelatory analysis of what was going on in his brain. He shows how drugs speak to the brain - which is designed to seek rewards and soothe pain - in its own language. He shows in detail the neural mechanics of a variety of powerful drugs and of the onset of addiction, itself a distortion of normal perception. Dr. Lewis freed himself from addiction and ended up studying it. At the age of 30 he traded in his pharmaceutical supplies for the life of a graduate student, eventually becoming a professor of developmental psychology, and then of neuroscience - his field for the last 12 years. This is the story of his journey, seen from the inside out.
Download or read book Youth Murder Spectacle written by Charles R Acland and published by Routledge. This book was released on 2018-02-12 with total page 176 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In this book, Charles R. Acland examines the culture that has produced both our heightened state of awareness and the bedrock reality of youth violence in the United States. Beginning with a critique of statistical evidence of youth violence, Acland compares and juxtaposes a variety of popular cultural representations of what has come to be a perceived crisis of American youth. After examining the dominant paradigms for scholarly research into youth deviance, Acland explores the ideas circulating in the popular media about a sensational crime known as the "preppy murder" and the confession to that crime. Arguing that the meaning of crime is never inherent in the event itself, he evaluates other sites of representation, including newspaper photographs (with a comparison to the Central Park "wilding"), daytime television talk shows (Oprah, Geraldo, and Donahue), and Hollywood youth films (in particular River's Edge). Through a cultural studies analysis of historical context, Acland blurs the center of our preconceptions and exposes the complex social forces at work upon this issue in the late 1980s and early 1990s. Acland asks of the social critic, "How do we know that we are measuring what we say we are measuring, and how do we know what the numbers are saying? Arguments must be made to interpret findings, which suggests that conclusions are provisional and, to various degrees, sites of contestation." He launches into this gratifying book to show that beyond the problematic category of "actual" crime, the United States has seen the construction of a new "spectacle of wasted youth" that will have specific consequences for the daily lives of the next generation.
Download or read book Confessions of a Female Vigilante written by A. L. Sutter and published by Xlibris Corporation. This book was released on 2015-09-18 with total page 385 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Confessions is a psychological thriller, page-turning revelation about misplaced trust and the irreparable harm to the female psyche caused by relationships with men. Lane Stone has been a twenty-five year prosecutor for the Los Angeles County District Attorneys Office, and now practices criminal defense. Claiming justice after a devastating experience of erotic transference with her psychologist of thirty years, she takes justice into her own hands. Through the encouragement of the only true love Lane has ever known - Christopher, she seems to be redeemed. Doubt as to Lanes motives is raised by Chris best friend, Jimmy, an LAPD cop, but the mature unbreakable bond Lane shares with Christopher seems strong enough to put Lanes demons to rest. Can the obsessive need for revenge ever be satiated? Only you, the readers can hand down the verdict on Lane Stone.
Download or read book Neck Deep and Other Predicaments written by Ander Monson and published by Macmillan. This book was released on 2007-01-23 with total page 215 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In this spearkling nonfiction debut, Monson uses unexpectedly nonliterary forms - the index, the Harvard outline, the mathematical proof - to delve into an equally surprising mix of obsessions: disc golf, the history of mining in northern Michigan, car washes, snow, topology, and more. He remembers the telegram, a disappearing form, and reflects on his outsider experience at an exclusive Detroit-area boarding school in the form of a criminal history. - from cover
Download or read book Before I Let You Go written by Kelly Rimmer and published by Harlequin. This book was released on 2018-04-03 with total page 411 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: From the author of The Things We Cannot Say, Before I Let You Go explores a hotly divisive topic and asks how far the ties of family love can be stretched before they finally break. “Kelly Rimmer skillfully takes us deep inside a world where love must make choices that logic cannot. Ripped from the headlines and from the heart, Before I Let You Go is an unforgettable novel that will amaze and startle you with its impact and insight.” —Patti Callahan Henry, New York Times bestselling author of The Bookshop at Water’s End “Before I Let You Go is a heartbreaking book about an impossible decision. Kelly Rimmer writes with wisdom and compassion about the relationships between sisters, mother and daughter…. She captures the anguish of addiction, the agonizing conflict between an addict’s best and worst selves. Above all, this is a novel about the deepest love possible.” —Luanne Rice, New York Times bestselling author The 2:00 a.m. call is the first time Lexie Vidler has heard her sister’s voice in years. Annie is a drug addict, a thief, a liar—and in trouble, again. Lexie has always bailed Annie out, given her money, a place to sleep, sent her to every kind of rehab. But this time, she’s not just strung out—she’s pregnant and in premature labor. If she goes to the hospital, she’ll lose custody of her baby—maybe even go to prison. But the alternative is unthinkable. As the weeks unfold, Lexie finds herself caring for her fragile newborn niece while her carefully ordered life is collapsing around her. She’s in danger of losing her job, and her fiancé only has so much patience for Annie’s drama. In court-ordered rehab, Annie attempts to halt her downward spiral by confronting long-buried secrets from the sisters’ childhoods, ghosts that Lexie doesn’t want to face. But will the journey heal Annie, or lead her down a darker path? Don’t miss Kelly Rimmer’s next historical suspense, The Paris Agent, coming July 2023! For more by Kelly Rimmer, look for The Things We Cannot Say Truths I Never Told You The Warsaw Orphan The German Wife
Download or read book Confessions of an English Opium Eater written by Thomas de Quincey and published by Gottfried & Fritz. This book was released on 2015-06-24 with total page 110 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A book about opium usage and the effects of addiction on the authors life.
Download or read book Confess written by Colleen Hoover and published by Simon and Schuster. This book was released on 2015-03-10 with total page 320 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: "This book club in a box contains 7 stand alone titles of Colleen Hoover.
Download or read book Economies of Representation 1790 2000 written by Dr Helen Gilbert and published by Ashgate Publishing, Ltd.. This book was released on 2013-04-28 with total page 266 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Although postcolonialism has emerged as one of the most significant theoretical movements in literary and cultural studies, it has paid scant attention to the importance of trade and trade relations to debates about culture. Focusing on the past two centuries, this volume investigates the links among trade, colonialism, and forms of representation, posing the question, 'What is the historical or modern relationship between economic inequality and imperial patterns of representation and reading?' Rather than dealing exclusively with a particular industry or type of industry, the contributors take up the issue of how various economies have been represented in Aboriginal art; in literature by North American, Caribbean, Portuguese, South African, First Nations, Australian, British, and Aboriginal authors; and in a diverse range of writings that includes travel diaries, missionary texts, the findings of the Leprosy Investigation Commission, early medical accounts and media representations of HIV/AIDS. Examining trade in commodities as various as illicit drugs, liquor, bananas, tourism, adventure fiction, and modern Aboriginal art, as well as cultural exchanges in politics, medicine, and literature, the essays reflect the widespread origins of the contributors themselves, who are based throughout the English-speaking world. Taken as a whole, this book contests the commonplace view promoted by some modern economists-that trade in and of itself has a leveling effect, equalising cultures, places, and peoples-demonstrating instead the ways in which commerce has created and exacerbated differences in power.
Download or read book Drugs Make You Un Smarter written by Savanna Peterson and published by . This book was released on 2011-02 with total page 242 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: What do you do when a parent, a grandparent, your brother, cousins and an uncle are doing drugs? You are also expected to do drugs, right? Fifteen-year-old Savanna Peterson went beyond the expectations of others and took a stand against drugs, even when her older brother had parties while her mom was at work, the cops were watching her house, and her dad spent most of her life in prison for drug-related crimes.
